2bit_sapiens

okay so i just noticed, i am new to the site and all, that one can't post multiple entries on the same day...?? is that right y'all? that's insizzane! i've had a day today, had a sleep over last night with a girl of mine and took a bike ride in the beautiful sunshiney saturday smelling octoberness going on all around us. it's surprising how i get these visions of clarity thrown in amidst some dull and drabbies. or maybe it's invigorating how i get these moments of dullness amidst the great play of life, play on words and moments. i realize that it seems hard for me to know what these sites are about. i never seem to be able to cut through the fog of unsuspecting me, of closeted, guarded futility. i am listening to a really good song and watching those fucking smilies blink away at me. one of my best friends is really sad right now, we went to the park and played badmitton (god i love that game!) but she's having some difficulties right now with love. which makes me pose the question: are we ever going to truly be able to communicate and coexist with another for very long? sometimes i don't know, all of it seems like too much work at times. the love and the sadness, the passion. you know the worst thing i think is when there's a disconnect, like when you've hit a wall with someone and you have to chalk it up to just being a goodbye. that's so sad to me...
i bet i will not be on this site for very long. i can never manage to stick it out...on to the next...what is that??!! i hate that sometimes...can't i just get good at one or two things? why must we strive and strive until death? well, if true contentment were reached i probably wouldn't know what to do with myself, now would i?
i am going to new york next week, the city that is. some friends are having a wedding ceremony and g and i are visiting friends in the city. i'm very excited, like i haven't been this excited in a while. you know i've never been?
tomorrow's sunday, yeees. going to do housecleaning and maybe out to the city after that. i don't think i've been since pride. no way man...that can't be...i didn't even go to the folsom or castro street fairs...even though i had friends running booths...i am a bad friend sometimes...i am evolving..
everyone (which is probably no one because no one will read this..) please watch my friends show on 11/10...greeneyeddork is the shit..my big bro...
i love fall, i love the turning leaves, i love the gourds, i love the scent on the air...i love the death of it all......

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