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Another party, another success. THANK GOD I'm done for another year!!!! Nine, 9 year olds, four pizzas, two adults, one 2 year old, & one hot, hot pool........the big smile on my ETree's face, priceless.

I AM SPENT!!! I think it was the heat more than anything. The kids were well behaved for the most part.

So I'm just a wee bit irritable now & need to get this little rant out somewhere safe. My son's friend's mother used to be a "friend" of mine. (At least that's what she considered herself to be.) I was always guarded around her just because of the type of person she was displaying herself to be. An opinion about everything, even when she knew nothing of it, judgemental, & materialistic. The type of person that loved talking about herself so much that if you had anything to contribute to the conversation, she'd get bored, & it would be over. I'll give her this....she does have some major issues. I just didn't know it was possible to have such a low self esteem & be so self centered at the same time.

Anyway, our kids, who used to be best friends, haven't seen each other outside of school, since my little Bear was born. (Sadly enough, its because he was born.) I said she has issues....well, one of them apparently, is not being able to be happy for "friends" when something good happens to them, (regardless of what her feelings may be). So yes, I'm bitter!

Besides the fact that I absolutely was not going to be made to feel guilty for being joyous over our new child, I'm bitter because her hangups have completely interfered with our kids' friendship. No matter how you slice it, that's wrong.

My hubby laughs & calls her my nemesis. Which bothers me, it was never really in my control, I'd simply given up on upholding a onesided friendship that wasn't healthy from the get-go. There's alot of water under that bridge & I really don't think bad of her now. I just don't care to be "friends" with her. I'm civil & friendly the few times I have seen her, but it's incredibly uncomfortable. (As it was at the party today.)

It was quite the struggle trying to maintain a decorum of small talk. I'm not a small talkie person. If words have no meaning, I'd much prefer silence. So, as it was in the beginning, I listened & smiled & nodded & gritted my teeth, as she went on & on about her new this & bigger that. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for people when they have nice things that make them happy. But when that is literally the only subject they ever talk about, it gets tiresome. Its like she thinks that all her "stuff" is the only thing that defines her. Sad really.

Needless to say, I was so overwhelmingly happy when another mom (one that I genuinely like) came in. I didn't mean to ignore the "nem" or anything, but the conversation switched to something other than her & she must not have had anything to contribute because she left without so much as a bye. So, now we'll go for yet another year, pretending that it doesn't matter that our kids never see each other. Call me a bitch, but I just don't have time for people who don't have time, or a care, for anyone but themselves!

Sorry, rant over..........



Geez, I don't like how I sound when I'm going off about someone. It makes me feel so ugly!