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I am so fucking horny......

i cant stand depressed
im an empty vessel...
ive torn out everything i dont like
and now there's nothing left of
my half of a life, im soaked with sweat
and havent slept in months
my mind hurts and my head is sore
i have no more to give
i just cant bleed anymore

all of me is under this skin
of ashes and dirt...
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beastie boys were great last night.
its really funny, well not so much funny as mildy depressing...they are getting so old, and showing it.
i saw them for the first time when i was in 7th grade, about 19 years ago, so that gave me pause during the show. i thought about it for a minute, and i really wanted to thank them. ive spent...
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watch it blossom
that beautiful red bloom on the floor
chase its spread from room to room
running stains on dead wood floors
feel the spin
turning in your head again
its like a summer tiltawhirl
but in the dark of winter
there are broken leaves and fallen limbs
scattered across the bathroom tile
with hazy scenes of our pathetic dreams
frozen in your eyes...
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its over now
the jobs been done
with or without
its all the same now
so why pretend
the game is over now
the battle has been won
im all over now
the race has been run
dont bet my horse
for shes sure to lose
i cant take even once more
around the track
i cant take one more day
of your horseracers blues

hello, have we met?
im the one with the scars
you seem nice
where are yours?
you hide them so well
and you speak of them so softly
but i carry mine like badges.
they are my season passes
to hell and back
a round trip ticket to deliverance.
tell me where you hide yours
i will show you where i keep mine
its ok,...
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went and saw Cake tonight at Jannus Landing...
what a great show...and what a great band.

I wish people listened to more good music, so then good music would be on the radio instead of the shit that is.


sigh......

form a line
and count the time
it takes me to fall down again
it will happen
just wait and see
its not a matter of if but when
i cant help myself from falling
i need it for discovery
its a mirror
a bitter reflection
of self deflection
and uninvited misery

hold me down like only you can
press upon my chest until my air escapes me
tie my hands with those pretty eyes
break my will with your soft and sexy sighs
once is never enough
enough just has no meaning
dont wake me when you're done with me
dont wake me from this dream and
just claw your way through my skin
dont stop...
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sometimes i want to take a knife
and cut into my hand
just to feel the gentle rush.
sometimes i want to hold my breath
and forget to breathe
a nightmare red and flushed
you think that i cant hear you
when you take your leave
and quietly close the door
you think i dont know where you go
when you leave me wanting more....
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i have an addiction....
its burning my mind
its killing me.