snow

i feel sick and dispensable. if only i had taken march off...i think i could have made things right. i could have worked my ass off at home...and made it possible. now i'm stuck. i fucking hate christmas.


okay snap out of it. i'm starting a band and going to japan.

$300 to get home by 11pm
i cry when i pick up the phone...i listen to your voices over and over again
two days in bed, no contact

"and she disappeared into the night, never to be seen again"

siren can't stop staring at our xmas lights. she wants ice cream and the store. i want dirty emails and comments. go.

i'm thinking...a loft, a bright green 63 chevy, and some red cowboy boots. a ping pong table by the kitchen. walking to the bookstore 3 days a week. monday morning coffee. sunday nights performing under the hot red lights. an occasional hangover. going to the music store...there are two choices...go back the next day and buy both...on vinyl. one wall red, one wall a board...
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stormy likes cocoa puffs....

quinne likes to eat roadkill....

yup...i can't sleep because the girls are out here whispering about piss...

"is that like the porn site?"

book of quotes

sat through hours of auditions today...

snow
siren
quinne
nixion
pearl
nixon
raven isis
sicily

how can i sleep with all this noise!!!
silly video games...ahh i'm just mad because i don't get to play

somehow i keep ending up alone...i think i just need some "space"...for the next 5 months i will be surrounded by people...24 hours a day...this is my time...4 baths a...
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auditions today at noon.....we need 6 more girls

need to buy: new sunglasses that actually fit, more orange juice, bubble bath, something to play my cd's on....

by the 3rd grade, i should have realized that boys are stupid....actually that sounds like something i would have said at age eight....why can't you be just the right combination of sane and insane....crazy blue eyes...pull my hair...
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sooooo many girls...tryouts this weekend for the next tour....tomorrow i watch the girls shake it.

i miss texas....well i don't really miss the state.

fuck...i just decided i was too tired to update my journal...

thanks tegan for the pic of.....texas....ahhhh.

in austin....south by southwest....was it six shots of jager before 5pm....modest mouse tonight 1am....backstage....i feel the lips around the back of my neck...there is no turning back....floating down the river....red lips.....dark eyebrows....pearl buttons on the plaid shirt....hotel 530.....met debra jean today....too beautiful to describe...."hard to remember to live before you die"....bath or shower....drink or go to sleep....lonely....heartbroken....
miniskirts and black socks.....swirls on boots and black...
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tegan, shera, brandy, siren, snow...waiting for the shuttle to take us to the LA airport. south by southwest. we will be in austin by midnight, after i little stop in phoenix. i want a motorcycle for the next ride to vegas.
tegan chews her nails too much.
my bangs keep getting shorter.
i want words all across my back.