Mooing? Is that like, cow tipping? Hanging out with cows? Where do cows come into play with your drinking and partying adventures. I'm seriously curious about this. I do hope you'll post some video. I wanna see it.
"I don't think people are meant to be by themselves. That's why if you actually find someone you care about it's important to let go of the little things even if you can't let go all the way, because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone. No matter how many people are around."
I seem to do pretty good by myself. As long as I don't tell myself that I need to be with someone else I do fine. The biggest problem is when I see my girl on cam. Then I'm like "AHHHH MUST HAVE!" and end up runnin off to be with her. But as long as I'm just by myself I'm usually pretty happy. You might be like that or might not. It all depends on if you see yourself as a god. If so, all you need is yourself. If not, you might continually require someone else to pump your ego for you. You'd have to figure that out yourself though.
At the bottom no one in life can help anyone else in life; this one experiences over and over in every conflict and every perplexity: that one is alone. That isn't as bad as it may first appear; and again it is the best thing in life that each should have everything in himself; his fate, his future, his whole expanse and world.
-Rainer Maria Rilke
Personally, I've always preferred a steadfast companion who is my also my best friend, as opposed to being buzzed by love. For me, others are compliments, not completions.
I think fiction does us a great disservice as far as skewing our perceptions of what love is and ought to be.
I regret your are suffering and I understand your pain. When I was very young I shared some of your feelings. Time and experience have taught me much of them were delusion that actually worked against my being happy more so than empowering me to share properly with another.
My life improved remarkably when I learned how to be happy alone, and to love myself. I changed my focus from wanting another to be my life to choosing to share a complete life with the other. Before, I was often using love as an excuse to shift the focus from myself and avoid problems I should be dealing with.
yeah in time u prolly will be fine but why be miserable here, i don't know the facts hun but if there's an alternative where u can take what u want go take it. Friends ... real ones will still be there if it goes wrong and the rest aren't worth the worry.