lily

in the hospital.
this nice nurse let me use her laptop.
menengitis, fuck cunt.
i feel like i'm dying.
much love, lily

headed south soon
so fucking cold
leaves fall
like all of you
couldn't find my friend in nyc
just wet rats under my toes
and poison in my blood
so afraid of dying
need to talk to that girl
so she can remind me we are just cells
floating.
Love, Lily

I need to leave this country.
Love, Lily

Richard took a bunch more pictures before i left.
we went down to east river park for this project he is working on.
I left the city last night. watched the city lights fade behind me and secretly wished death upon 3.6 million people.............
One of my old friends was there, sleeping in east river park. we drank alot of beer together and talked shit....
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i panhandled off of elijah wood last night.
weird.
love, lily

fdfdh

I did my photo shoot today. stared into the camera like some little girl.
I really like richard kern, i think he's amazing
he makes me laugh.
he was afraid i was going to steal from his house,

I watch the faces of these assholes walk the streets never looking up from the sidewalk. 8.6 million creatures called humans crushed all together in little concrete...
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Spinning in circles, In New York City. I slept in my van all day. I drank too much last night. Me and my friends crashed some lame ass party and fucked shit up. we were throwing beer bottles at the porch on the way out. I always feel crazy and uncontained around shawn. when we get together we become tottallly sociopathic. I love him. We...
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hypochondria--
The persistent conviction that one is or is likely to become ill, often involving symptoms when illness is neither present nor likely, and persisting despite reassurance and medical evidence to the contrary. Also called hypochondriasis.

This is my new diagnosis,
ha.
In a state of nothingness really, not that any of my thoughts can be expressed through this useless human language. Ya'll try so...
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