I'm leaving the strip club after tonight. bye bitches.
I made good money last night. I was robbing people left and right of their money and their dignity.
Going to go hang out with Richard Kern in manhattan after tomorrow and let him take naked pictures of me.
I got like 400 dollars worth of tickets last night when these asshole police officers pulled me...
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I made good money last night. I was robbing people left and right of their money and their dignity.
Going to go hang out with Richard Kern in manhattan after tomorrow and let him take naked pictures of me.
I got like 400 dollars worth of tickets last night when these asshole police officers pulled me...
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I talked to this girl today, that i used to know but i don't think i really know her anymore. her brain is ruined from shooting speed, she used to have such a lovely brain. She used to be something really special to me, and now when i look at her its like she's the fuckin poster child for wasted youth and it makes my...
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crookshark:
when my friend od'd from shooting coke, all this white foam came out of her lips and she was seizuring and staring straight ahead, right through my screaming face. i tried to carry her outside so she would wake up from fresh air but she shook right out of my arms and fell on the floor. and then while i lay over her screaming 'don't die, don't die you bitch don't you fucking die' she suddenly sat straight up and i saw death/demon in her face and her eyes and her body and he started punching me through her in the face and then he just left and she was her again except she didn't know her name for a while. i had flashbacks of that demon for months after that, i would wake up screaming. he was so mad at me for not letting him take her away. fucking stupid demon. i win, you dumb fuck.
do you like the kills? theres a girl in the kills that has a voice. you have to see it live to know. but it's real.
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do you like the kills? theres a girl in the kills that has a voice. you have to see it live to know. but it's real.
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[Edited on Sep 16, 2003]
crookshark:
have you ever read 'runaway: diary of a street kid' by evelyn lau? it's good. also, 'please kill me' by legs mcneal. good too.
Lying in my plastic bag thinking how things weren't so cool to me...............
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fenris23:
yeah sometimes things just aren't cool.
toiletooth:
we are all given a certain set of tools, broken or new, rusted or not, to work with. backwards as they may seem, they all serve a very distinct purpose. they all fix something else, and sometimes eachother.
I think i have a complete inability to relate to straight men.
Going to manhattan in a few days to shoot some pictures for Barely Legal and then the wind might blow me in different directions and i'll just listen like a submissive whore.
My father is a cocksucker, not in a good way.
I call him occasionally for help, like when my van broke...
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Going to manhattan in a few days to shoot some pictures for Barely Legal and then the wind might blow me in different directions and i'll just listen like a submissive whore.
My father is a cocksucker, not in a good way.
I call him occasionally for help, like when my van broke...
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tadzi:
if it makes you feel any better i cant relate to straight men either. and i am one.
canapunker:
you can kill me off if you want to.
It's weird when your friends die
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spamhain:
yo lily we might not play on tuesday we cant get a hold of our fucking drummer. but give me a call cuz i wanna see you anyway. goddamnit!!!!!
toiletooth:
yeah, i know.
My johnny cash is dead.
fuck.
i hate my whatever he is to me.
i want to drive him away.
he is in love with me.
Repeatedly wake up next to someone you hate.
i will kill him.
and rip his heart out.
goodbye guitar boy.
Love, Lily
fuck.
i hate my whatever he is to me.
i want to drive him away.
he is in love with me.
Repeatedly wake up next to someone you hate.
i will kill him.
and rip his heart out.
goodbye guitar boy.
Love, Lily
fenris23:
Johnny Cash RIP
Don't forget to pickle the heart to carry as an object lesson!
Johnny Cash RIP
Don't forget to pickle the heart to carry as an object lesson!
Happy 9/11.
I left town, like a fucking hurricane.
On my way to.....i don't know really.
Love, Lily
I left town, like a fucking hurricane.
On my way to.....i don't know really.
Love, Lily
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mei:
sounds like fun..
jealous mei
have fun..
jealous mei
have fun..
fuzzylogic:
you obviously don't like where yer at & the people that visit you at your job, but running away won't make it go away. you will just find the same people & occupation over there too. diamanda galas changes herself to gain new artist persectives & growth. look at plague mass -she's not afraid to face things.
A bunch of extremely pretentious Art/Model/Actor/Musician Fucks from new york and L.A. accidentally stumbled into our white trash strip club last night. It was very strange. They took an interest in me and invited me to their pretentious expensive party where they handed me my very own $100 dollar bottle of Champagne, I got reminded of how much i hate the industry and how it...
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enzo525:
I like the way you write. I my self, on the other hand am an awful writer, so I'm always looking for inspiration. Thank you for the unintended inspiration. 
reverendbenzo:
Fusion? I never heard of that one either but to be fair I rarely watch TV.
I have a few more days left of working at the club before i run away. I am really unmotivated when i'm there. Sometimes i just sit on their lap and masterbate and they watch me like vultures and i'm some prey.
I got in a fight with these white trash bitches that i work with. both of them have like ten kids. stupid breeders....
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I got in a fight with these white trash bitches that i work with. both of them have like ten kids. stupid breeders....
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toiletooth:
i love that forest whittaker song.
do you listen to my music?
do you listen to my music?
spamhain:
yo lily we miss you in vt hope your doing well.
love your set. and your gonna miss 13 1/2's first show on sept 6 03
l8
you know who i am
your friendly ghost friend
love your set. and your gonna miss 13 1/2's first show on sept 6 03
l8
you know who i am
your friendly ghost friend
Quit my job.
damn the man.
Love, Lily
damn the man.
Love, Lily
fenris23:
Whoo hoo! does this mean you are moving on?
toiletooth:
get a real job now, you whore.
I hate the majority of the girls that i work with, they personify the typical stupid stripper. they get so freaked out by me, so i always try to make sure i extra freak them out by doing things like scrubbing the menstrual blood out of my thongs in the sink while they apply their makeup and make disgusted faces, heh.
"We gotta get out...
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fallen1carus:
hahaha! awesome.
5pirochete:
get out of that place as fast as you can. it's worse than a vortex. it's a sinkhole of despair and misery. it has bad juju. for god's sake, run.
saw you land in that place, your disarray, your pre-emptive act of charity i thought you must be very nice. i've been hoping you were ok. sounds like you are.
but get the fuck out of there, girl.
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saw you land in that place, your disarray, your pre-emptive act of charity i thought you must be very nice. i've been hoping you were ok. sounds like you are.
but get the fuck out of there, girl.
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I bought a van today for $500, it actually runs pretty well. But it's not registered or inspected and i still lack a liscense........always thinking ahead.
Southbound soon. it gets colder here everyday, the wind stings my skin.
I hate sleeping lately. The strangest energy creeps into my dreams and i become lucid and can wake myself up by screaming.
I talked to Shawn, my...
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Southbound soon. it gets colder here everyday, the wind stings my skin.
I hate sleeping lately. The strangest energy creeps into my dreams and i become lucid and can wake myself up by screaming.
I talked to Shawn, my...
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fenris23:
Five hundred for the van, Score!
That zine sounds like it was cool.
That zine sounds like it was cool.
toiletooth:
i will pray for you and your mother.
but aside from that, being completely equal in importance though, read these two books.
1. You Can't Win by Jack Black...you'll have to have it ordered.
2. The Wine of Youth by John Fante.
those two books might shed some light on the book you need to write.
call me a tell people what to do ass. its ok. i just believe that what i read on this site needs to be something i could hold at some point, and i doubt it'd be you. a paperback is what i'm thinking.
but aside from that, being completely equal in importance though, read these two books.
1. You Can't Win by Jack Black...you'll have to have it ordered.
2. The Wine of Youth by John Fante.
those two books might shed some light on the book you need to write.
call me a tell people what to do ass. its ok. i just believe that what i read on this site needs to be something i could hold at some point, and i doubt it'd be you. a paperback is what i'm thinking.
I have a new business that I think you could pull off. men pay you money to give YOU a strip show. You give them a rating and the rating determines how much they pay next time and if they are welcome next time.
hahaha you know i love you lily hope youcome back to b-town with doug soon so we can chill a bit longer.you have to come to one of my shows.
L8
casper