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Top o' the mornin'!

In the 45 minutes I've been awake, I've managed to accidently dump my cereal all over the kitchen floor, bend my glasses out of shape, and scratch up one of my favorite CDs.

I also recieved a delightful e-mail telling me that I am a stuck-up, self-absorbed 18-year-old bitch with a knack for fucking things up. Jokes on them, I knew...
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a35mmlife:
Sounds like it is time for bead already.
jumping_spider:
you are right I should not care but I do. . .damn you are beautiful.
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Stetched my ears to a 0 ga today.

They burrrrrrrrrrrrn.

power stretching= evil!
heyimonlydancing:
what ga. were they before you stretched em to a zero? i'm curious because right now mine are at a 10 ga. and i'm kinda just considering a dermal punch of some sort. but if i can avoid it i would be pretty happy.

ooooo, you like botch. right fuckin on!! they're version of O Fortuna blows my mind!!

tootles,
alesandra
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Life is OK.
Being unemployed sucks, I have nothing to do, and I'm broke. Shannon suggested I start stripping with her. She says, "you look like your 12, you would bring in alot of money!"
I don't know. I'm not exactly the epitomy of feminine grace and beauty. If I did get the guts to take my clothes off in front of everyone, I would...
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jamy:
most of the time, the aren't looking for the 'epitomy of feminine grace'.... look to SG for this kind of material...
misterseeon:
you may look twelve but you are still pretty, it wouldn't hurt to try stripping smile

i hate moving.
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I am so utterly lame.

When I have no free time, I wish and wish and wish I could just do nothing.

When I do have free time, I get so bored and irritable and negative that I drive myself nuts.

I would give my non-existent left testicle for summer to hurry up and be over so I can go to school, therefore filling my...
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binaryfiendsgone:
What do you end up doing with your free time? Curious...
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Went to the Jim Rose Circus and Foxy Boxing last weekend.
What a surprise, both events were put on by KUFO and Thrasher Presents and both events sucked.
Foxy Boxing was so disgusting we left halfway through. Sorry, but if I want to be groped and propositioned every which way I'll walk up Burnside at 3 a.m. rather than paying to get into the Crystal...
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kentavos:
Wow...I'm glad that I didn't go. Thanx for the revied. And I still have mounds of bills on my floor. ;-)
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If I can get through this day without committing mass homicide, I can do anything.
emperor_tane:
I wish you luck!!

Travis
ethanbradek:
Definitally good luck to you. Nothing wrong with being a counter slut though, done it myself. That is if we're both talking about the same thing. Good luck with the body modification thing!
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Tonight...going to Tori's pirate-themed keggar with Chuck + Kat.

Pirates and beer.

Good times.
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Updating at 4 am in the morning from Derrik's house.

Everyone got trashed and barfed and passed out by 1. My friends are the classiest motherfuckers on earth.

Derrik refused me a ride home because he is a fucking asshole, especially when he is drunk.

It's OK though, I've got a Dean Koontz novel in my bag and the fridge is stocked with PBR. I...
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gimmesatisfaction:
You shouldn't take rides with drunk people anyway.
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I've spent more time than humanly imaginable searching for relevance in my existing in this universe, and there IS NONE. It is the perpetuation of human suffering and it increases at an exponential rate and it only afflicts a given proportion of all existing entities. It is chaos theory personified.

I know it's pointless to discuss, but there has never once in my life been...
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digdug:
Why do you feel the need to have an explanation for EVERYTHING? Of course, there are many different belief systems, but I think (as, I guess you have realized) that things just happen. Why do you think your existence must have a specific role? Do you think that we, as sentient beings, have a greater purpose than other living beings, or even non-living beings for that matter? Everything has some sort of function, but it nothing really "matters". You're spending time looking for something which you will never find.

I can certainly empathize. To a certain degree, I have beem where you've been. You seem to be even more nihilistic than I was at 18. I don't want to sound preachy, but the attitude that you convey here, and which I suspect is conveyed in real life as well, will continue to prevent anyone from falling for you. People pick up on that and perceive it as a turn off. I know, because I have this problem as well. You can't just say "OK, I'm going to be happy today and everything will be better". I don't know...it basically took me 30 years to do anything about my depression. I look back on my youth as completely wasted opportunities. It's hard to be optimistic. Everyone is different, but I started taking various medications a few years ago and a lot of those negative feelings no longer arise. I never thought pills were the answer, probably because I didn't see the issue an internal. The problem, to me, was always external.

It's late & I'm not sure why I'm even telling you this, besides the fact that you seem really smart and introspective, you have good taste in women and you live in the same city as the SGs. So, basically, as I see it, you have a lot going for you. I probably sound like something a dad would say - I didn't mean to. I'm not telling you what to do, but if you ever wanna talk about anything, you know where I am. OK, I sound like the biggest douchebag, but I'm serious.
digdug:
I just went back and read your earlier journal entries and realized that you probably just had a bad day today.

Please forgive my idiocy amd conclusion-jumping. I truly am a douche-bag.