finch

this is a comment clearing journal entry.

i changed my name. if you didn't notice, you're silly. it's haitian creole for 'curse'


i had seven faces,
thought i knew which one to wear.
but i'm sick of spending these lonely nights
training myself not to care.
the subway, she is a porno,
the pavements, they are a mess.
i know you've supported me for a...
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i have this intense pain around my left shoulder blade. i mean, the fucking thing hurts. it seriously feels like someone's stabbing me in the back. i don't know what i did, and i don't know what to do about it. i just know that it sucks.

i'm going to try and be an opinion columnist for my school's paper. in order to do...
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i wanted to update my journal, but then realized i didn't have too much to say.

this is my last week here. this makes me rather sad. booooo going back to pennsylvania.

ah, well. one more year of school. i can handle that.

for everyone

EDIT: i probably won't have computer access between a few hours from now and late-ish tomorrow night. don't miss me...
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the cure was fucking incredible. after sneaking into the lower section with minimalism, we had a lovely view of both interpol and the cure. so good. the only thing that would have made it better would have been them playing 'us or them.' i really can't complain though. so so good.

that's all.

and

kayla is the sweetest thing ever. why? because she started this thread and it totally made my day.

i you guys.

i didn't have internet access all day today. what a crazy world. instead, i slept ridiculous amounts. yay, sleep! that's where i'm a viking!

song in my head:

make me stay by ani

i'm going to turn and walk away,
you wait til i am far along,
then run and come and catch my arm
and say you'd die if i were gone.
i want...
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this is my favorite poem.

Beauty by Lawrence Raab

Is it wrong to imagine that in our lives
this or that should not have happened?
We choose to think spirit is a triumph
over all kinds of adversity.
Then we praise the spirit, praise
the hard times that make it what it has become.
This may even be true. As it is possible
to imagine...
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i am not a pretty girl,
that is not what i do.
i ain't no damsel in distress,
and i don't need to be rescued.
so put me down, punk,
wouldn't you prefer a maiden fair?
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere?

i am not an angry girl,
but it seems like i've got everyone fooled.
every time i say something they...
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10. i am really fucking pissed off at the medical community right now. we're going on 3 weeks since my mom had her biopsy done and it's still not in yet.

9. it's not looking too good for the remainder of the journal entry when i'm on number 9 and thinking 'hmmmm...what should i say?'

8. let's see....this is my favorite pic from prom, after...
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