sunday evening
litte bit of joy
blanketed later with a voice stripped of all recognition
my own all too clear in the room of only me
clutter all about
and mine the only arms to warp around myself to feel better
i am behind on everything
from the tiniest cell to the entire expanse of the universe
that's all for now
these are like bird...
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linz:
or like, beautiful lady journals creating little tid bits fo all but not revealing too much of the soul.
moondust:
r u spanish?
...I came to update my journal, only to sit here with still fingers, cold in the evening air, with nothing but the sight of a tumbleweed across my cranium's inner screen.
I am sleepy.
Like sands through the hourglass...
I am sleepy.
Like sands through the hourglass...
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linz:
you are so incredbily gorgeous!
metaverse:
Hope you're smiling today and find something more then a tumbleweed in your mind. I always feel like that when I come home from work at 7am in the morning.
Thanks for the comments during the strangling cloud of doom lingering as of late, despite the sun's fingers tickling my back with the changing weather.
SO does anyone know of any DECENT joints in SF to watch some fine ladies for a fella's ritual day of birth celebration? One that isn't all shitty across from the Salvation Army where the Tenderloin picking hang out? Suggestions...
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SO does anyone know of any DECENT joints in SF to watch some fine ladies for a fella's ritual day of birth celebration? One that isn't all shitty across from the Salvation Army where the Tenderloin picking hang out? Suggestions...
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kennyg:
Yeah, it's in the groups, or use this: SGSF
I'm sure that with your credentials, lil_tuffy will give you instant access.
I remember a discussion a while ago when some girl wanted to find a place to dance and lots of people piped in with what places are slimy, who owns them, etc. I don't remember the verdict.
Thanks for your other comment. Other peoples' opinions are really helping me process this. Maybe it's weird, but I definitely felt there was a physical beauty in his ailing body too.
I'm sure that with your credentials, lil_tuffy will give you instant access.
I remember a discussion a while ago when some girl wanted to find a place to dance and lots of people piped in with what places are slimy, who owns them, etc. I don't remember the verdict.
Thanks for your other comment. Other peoples' opinions are really helping me process this. Maybe it's weird, but I definitely felt there was a physical beauty in his ailing body too.
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themadarab:
burned by passion,
extinguished by time
broken hearts are shattered,
and mended with wine.
i hope you feel better
extinguished by time
broken hearts are shattered,
and mended with wine.
i hope you feel better
mattybat:
hello there. how have you been?
Lag Queen here with her procession of unfinished deeds following behind in some form of chaotic unison.
Went away on a small vacation following the elusive entity that goes by the name of "Relax." Everyone tells me I need to just RELAX and so off on a journey I went to fins it, searvhing through rainforests and oceans to grab it in my arms, hold...
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Went away on a small vacation following the elusive entity that goes by the name of "Relax." Everyone tells me I need to just RELAX and so off on a journey I went to fins it, searvhing through rainforests and oceans to grab it in my arms, hold...
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lokischild:
::hug:: I think i love you.....nevermind that...i got a bit excited and couldn't calm me down in time..... :-D ........you are really awesome though.... 
-=squish=-
-=squish=-
krisrh:
How's your first week of classes going? Got some things sorted out?
-Kris
-Kris
Shit, how much time has pessed since I even got a chance to look at the felines on the site? I think I have the least time of all the humans I know of. It's amazing I still have friends.
The sun shone its bright flaming smile into my window, begging me to drive to the ocean and taste the ocean's belly, except I am...
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The sun shone its bright flaming smile into my window, begging me to drive to the ocean and taste the ocean's belly, except I am...
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kay:
Hope you are better soon. Or get more time and money soon. Or something.
~cheers
~cheers
krisrh:
Hehe Battle Royale. What a great movie. I'm new to the site and I love your set! Best of luck with everything.
-Kris
-Kris
I've gone into my closet and taken out this old skin I used to wear. Whenever I molt, I hang the old shell up in the back of my wardrobe. I know I should simply throw it to the wind, but I can't help but keep the transluscent shell around, just in case I'll need it again.
So I take it out and it (the...
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So I take it out and it (the...
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nick667:
hey whats up
mercie:
I know the feeling, sleeping all day, making up for lost time during the week, when it only seems you're losing time by sleeping it all away. It's harsh, I love my sleep, but I love to be awake and about and doing things. Keep going. 
I'm so effin' busy, I don't even have the space to make time for my depression. The days take on a watercolor blur, as I blend details of one day into the next.
I feel my creativity is stunted, like a malformed creature, crippled. I am working to heal it, and feel some of that life, that elixir that once nourished my innards of body...
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I feel my creativity is stunted, like a malformed creature, crippled. I am working to heal it, and feel some of that life, that elixir that once nourished my innards of body...
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razorblades3:
Depression sucks
abracadabra:
whenever you get depressed , just remember...you aren't homeless...i see them on the street and it humbles and focuses me in a way i could not describe...don't say bye say Ciao'
Ah yes, the brain on exhibition once again. Here we go kids:
You would think, or I would think, that not being dead in that Tsunami, or in war in Irag right now, would make this gripping sense of depression leave my bones , or abate it somewhat. Why does it not work like that? I used to have this amazing ability to be awfully...
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You would think, or I would think, that not being dead in that Tsunami, or in war in Irag right now, would make this gripping sense of depression leave my bones , or abate it somewhat. Why does it not work like that? I used to have this amazing ability to be awfully...
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katie:
Hey, you should join the Los Angeles Area Suicide Girls Group if you haven't already. It's for SG's only, and local events oming up are posted there, and it's also a good way to organize your own events or let us know about things going on as well : ]
http://suicidegirls.com/groups/Los+Angeles+Area+SGs/
xoxo
http://suicidegirls.com/groups/Los+Angeles+Area+SGs/
xoxo
dumpstarx:
Oh me oh my oh. The blues are an important part of feeling alive. You're one of my favorites. I joined this site a lil while back and started wandering it with a lizerd on my shoulder. I think he whispered something in my ear about you.
Seriously, the Tsunami situation is horrifically bleak. I really can't imagine what it would be like to be lucky enough to be alive after it happened, only to have to maybe die in the aftermath of unprecedented natural disaster from disease and contaminated water, If any of you can take a moment and donate even a tiny amount of $$$ to a non-pofit helping over... Read More
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loganmaclaren1:
I can see that most of you guys are american and it do surprise me that people that can so easily make with no right could be so concerned about this kind of disaster, especilly when it hapened so far from you. Maybe I misjudge you, guys.
I'm moved with your concern about other people's suffer and sorrow, Datura. You're far more than just a beautiful face. Thanks for show me that.
XOXO,
L.A.
I'm moved with your concern about other people's suffer and sorrow, Datura. You're far more than just a beautiful face. Thanks for show me that.
XOXO,
L.A.
denio:
Thanks for urging folks to donate.
Those of us that can't actually go and help can help from here in many ways... and being that 10$ is not that hard to come by in the US of A, I'd say the more of us that send it in, the better off the whole mess will be. I can't worry too much about where it ends up, the intent is right where it should be, and the better examples we set, the more positive energy we're sending along with the cash. Most of us here in the US have no comprehansion of the scale of this thing, both geographically, and in terms of number of people affected, families completely gone, hell, towns completely gone! The world is resonating with the fear and pain of these lost souls.
I had $12.37 to send, so I did.
Have a gorgeous day.
Those of us that can't actually go and help can help from here in many ways... and being that 10$ is not that hard to come by in the US of A, I'd say the more of us that send it in, the better off the whole mess will be. I can't worry too much about where it ends up, the intent is right where it should be, and the better examples we set, the more positive energy we're sending along with the cash. Most of us here in the US have no comprehansion of the scale of this thing, both geographically, and in terms of number of people affected, families completely gone, hell, towns completely gone! The world is resonating with the fear and pain of these lost souls.
I had $12.37 to send, so I did.
Have a gorgeous day.