betsyjane

Why did I stay up watching curb your enthusiasm rather than sleeping? Why why? Why can't things go back to semi-normal? Why is it so cold in my apartment I want to cry?
mmmmm coffee is good.
It solves all those issues and more.
Yay!
(witness mood swings in action for free!)

Its been a strange bad bad week. I am 100 percent nocturnal at this point. I spend the mornings too exausted to do anything functional but too somethingorother to go to sleep (I haven't been awake long enough). Lets see though. Good things? Eh.
Taxes. ugh.
No. Still bad. I'm okay though there was/is just a bad situation but I'll be okay. yeah. Thats all...
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Yesterday (this morning technically) was really really really bad.
It continues to be bad.

Ain't nothin' like drinking pbr by yourself on a friday night...

I realized today that yester day was my ex-friends birthday. I never really thought I'd have one of those. Not just any friend someone I loved deeply. (those who follow what I say will know her as my ex-girlfriend/bestfriend who is going out with my ex-boyfriend whom I caught making out lovingly in bed together next to me while he and I were still sort...
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Does anyone else have odd dream delusions when they are half asleep/waking up. Like things like Oh need to turn the alarm clock off so my feet don't get cold so the cold feet dogs can't smell me. And it makes sence in the context of dream head.
So Today I totally had one that was SG related. If I lay on my left side...
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My Day:

So there used to be this kinda gothy looking teen couple that would come into the store and sometimes they would make out and rent fun movies
and one time I saw them in the supermarket wearing khakis and flannel
and I figured their school must have a dress code.
They hadn't come in in a while and this time the guy came...
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Well I've posted this poem before but its my favourite and its been a while. I found it in the #26 spring 1994 issue of The Quarterly. A Canadian publication from Gutter Press that I found on the sidewalk. I have never been able to find any information or other work from the poet Richard Vela. If anyone knows anything about him please tell me!...
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Aint nothin like a cantor in a sombrero and a false moustache!
I couldn't even finish one bottle of wine by myself. I fell asleeep. Mmmm. What else? I saw Return of The King.
I had a million thoughts today that I wanted to write down and now I can't remember any of them.
Falling asleeep.

This is going be be a long one. It has been a strange complex busy day and its only 6 pm.

So I get a call at 8:30 am that the store I work at has been broken into and can I come in. Shit! I've only had 3 hours of sleep. erg.
So I get there and the front window is all smashed out...
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mmmm... not the best day at all. things need to be different. I need to make things be different. there is stress from all sides. there are so many things not taken care of. bills not paid. letters not answered. worse.
Snow! Lots and lots of snow!
Not too cold though. Nice! But! Busy!
Stores are funny and sort of closed.
My mouse finger really...
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