"holy shit."
"what?"
"we're late..."
"what time is it?"
"one thirty."
"holy fuck."
and so it began, new years eve day, late like so many other days before. you hit a point when its so late theres no possible way you could be on time, so you do it my way: as slowly as damn possible.
a shower, deliberate makeup application. trial and error with...
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"what?"
"we're late..."
"what time is it?"
"one thirty."
"holy fuck."
and so it began, new years eve day, late like so many other days before. you hit a point when its so late theres no possible way you could be on time, so you do it my way: as slowly as damn possible.
a shower, deliberate makeup application. trial and error with...
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ah, wednesdays. good things always seem to happen on wednesdays.
tegans here. shes in bed with me, and her head is almost in my lap. i may be the luckiest woman in the world.
met the lovely roby tonight... something id been meaning to do for a long time now... shes adorable, and rules more than i could possibly explain to any of you......
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tegans here. shes in bed with me, and her head is almost in my lap. i may be the luckiest woman in the world.
met the lovely roby tonight... something id been meaning to do for a long time now... shes adorable, and rules more than i could possibly explain to any of you......
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brokenalice:
Hey darlin' I missed talkin' to you...
back for at least 6 months
back for at least 6 months
feronia:
i bet you could learn to love me if you let me have you alone for a few hours 
two dogs, dark and ominous, plaguing my sleep...
they started out decent, but lost their owners; a bright eyed couple who loved the mean out of them, chased away in a flourish of wagging tails and swirled air...
colors ooze through the scene. cant process.
then they wander away... forget the kindnesses done them and instinct burns in their brains, an itch behind their ear...
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they started out decent, but lost their owners; a bright eyed couple who loved the mean out of them, chased away in a flourish of wagging tails and swirled air...
colors ooze through the scene. cant process.
then they wander away... forget the kindnesses done them and instinct burns in their brains, an itch behind their ear...
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azrael_abyss:
Happy early New Years doll!
user6142024:
consider yourself 'bookmarked as interesting'.....your journal always makes me smile....
i know im sick when i want my mom.
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tjaden:
i hope that you are feeling better... if not... i'll send you some cookies.
trixie:
where are you sweetness? Are you okay?
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acidevangelist:
I'm so sorry sweetie. Can I bring you anything?
acidevangelist:
Well, if you need ANYTHING: hug, margarita, pot pie, etc... call me, day or night, I will be by your side. 
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joneequest:
now that's real.
ps. them pix is killa
ps. them pix is killa
charlatan:
Tuesday? Do you promise? I know it is asking alot for you to commit on short notice but I am a demanding walrus. It was so refreshing to so your face today. Thanks for everything. I had a little brain spasm last night. I kind of owe you 15 bucks. Now you HAVE to see me. See how my mind works? I am EVIL. 
You are beautiful.
It was so refreshing to so your face today. Thanks for everything. I had a little brain spasm last night. I kind of owe you 15 bucks. Now you HAVE to see me. See how my mind works? I am EVIL.
You are beautiful.
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kira:
i've never broken any bones either...
escottie:
sweet lord! those are terrific shots from picnicland. holy fuck! 
-- my long term memory is great. short term, not so much.
-- it sucks to be old. i've seriously broken my wrist (4 months ago), shattered my elbow (well, the thugs that stomped me shattered it), and have healed stress fractures in my feet from running.
-- gin used to make me throw up. now it's the odor of sweet-and-sour pork that does the trick.
-- if you invited me over, i'd shave your legs for you. we'd have a long hot soak in the tub to boot.
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-- my long term memory is great. short term, not so much.
-- it sucks to be old. i've seriously broken my wrist (4 months ago), shattered my elbow (well, the thugs that stomped me shattered it), and have healed stress fractures in my feet from running.
-- gin used to make me throw up. now it's the odor of sweet-and-sour pork that does the trick.
-- if you invited me over, i'd shave your legs for you. we'd have a long hot soak in the tub to boot.
[Edited on Dec 10, 2004 11:12PM]
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irina:
*DROOL*
sephirajo:
Bensters you are teh cute. ♥
[Edited on Dec 06, 2004 9:27PM]
[Edited on Dec 06, 2004 9:27PM]
few things are better in life than opening sleepy eyes to find a pretty lady in bed with you.
and when that lady is Apnea...? excuse me while i change my pants.
and when that lady is Apnea...? excuse me while i change my pants.
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thecowboy:
whoa how have you been lately, cowgirl?..hows the mn?..thought id stop by and say hello, so..hello!
_alice_:
omg! a benni comment in my journal *swoon*
wait a minute..... how did you find out about the
sex!?!? it was MoralSoldier wasn`t it! oh he is soooo getting some sex tonight... his ass is gonna be so sore this weekend. although i`m beginning to think he enjoys it 
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wait a minute..... how did you find out about the
sex!?!? it was MoralSoldier wasn`t it! oh he is soooo getting some sex tonight... his ass is gonna be so sore this weekend. although i`m beginning to think he enjoys it .update and edit your journal...
update and edit your journal...
update and edit your journal...
update and edit your journal...
i slept through my life again today. my life, if you can call it that. my repetition, my routine, my rut...
cant sleep but dont accomplish anything... consciousness burns out as the sun creeps across my bed. uneasy, bad dreams. chased by demons, failed balancing...
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update and edit your journal...
update and edit your journal...
update and edit your journal...
i slept through my life again today. my life, if you can call it that. my repetition, my routine, my rut...
cant sleep but dont accomplish anything... consciousness burns out as the sun creeps across my bed. uneasy, bad dreams. chased by demons, failed balancing...
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xanthia:
You are amazing with words Benni!
scumbag:
ey btch the demons die off one by one and new are fucking born as well and it seems like like tey ave more poison ut soon tey just get weak and everything sorta pans out you'll see believe me of all people you know what im talking about keep ya head up hunny if i could do it you sure as ell can do it girl hit me back ya betta see me in january its funny me and lily were just talking about you
call me.
you're off the list. i need time, and i need my things.
i hope it doesn't sting. i still love you, but i can't keep doing this. i'm empty, i have nothing else to give, and it's just easier for me to not be checking your journal every five minutes when i don't have a link to it directly.
hope new york has treated you well.