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my dad goes into the hospital for surgery this morning.
they will try angioplasty first, but will most likely have to go through and do bypass.
they said they should have done it 11 years ago when his heart condition first arose...
they said it will be extremely risky because they are working in an area that already has stents in it.

i've lost count how many times he's been in the hospital...
i can't remember how many heart attacks he's had...
i can't remember how many stents he's had put in his heart...
...all because it's happened so many times over the past 11 years.

my mum has already spoken to me of the plans if he doesn't make it.
my head is so fucked right now.

i'm really scared
i won't be on much.



UPDATE
april 17

the drs were able to put another stent in!
my dad is now back home, seemingly doing ok.
they said he still needs bypass though