Wednesday Jun 30, 2004

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I just put in my two week notice with my really rad day job. I'm really sad to be leaving it... it's just customer service, but I love it. It's a small company owned by a husband and wife, he started it from his apartment years and years ago.

The environment is laid back, the people are just awesome. I have a lot of fun...
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vikprez:
It is still hard to believe, and this last month will just fly by too.
chloe:
awwwww!
So proud of you for making such a gutsy decision. That's what my boy is going to do too. One of these days. Sigh.

Sunday Jun 27, 2004

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I just got back from my second night at the club. Hmm...

Last night was my first night, and I have to give a huge thanks to my friends who came out and supported me: Adore, Seth0067, PunkJr, Kara, Volks, vikpreZ, and MrDiety. It made my first night mostly bearable. And since it was my first night, I...
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lily:
well its always hard for the new girl, well actually it depends on what club you're working but it takes a while to get regulars. At certain clubs i worked i would take my piercings out just because it was better for business, of course i still have tattoos but sometimes i realized that wearing hot pink shiny thong and top would make me alot more money than my blackness fishnets,boas, garters. But above all of that its really about acting, I've seen the most gorgeous girls not make shit because you really have to be flirtatious and act like you are really into the customers. You've danced before, You know that some nights are shit while others are amazing. You never know. You are exceptionally Goregous, I've always thought so, You'll be fine.
kimmi:
It isn't because you aren't attractive, because you are. Sometimes you will make money and sometimes you won't. Don't be too hard on yourself pretty lady! I used a lot of vitamin e for my bruises and such!

I hope things work out better for you!

Friday Jun 25, 2004

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I'm pretty unhappy right now. And I'm not sure what it will take to make it right again.

Am I just going to L.A., or am I running away to L.A.? There's a big difference, and I'm not sure which one it is that I'm doing. Either way, I'm going, and here's to hoping it makes me happy. Oh L.A., are you holding what it...
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mrdeity:
You looked great last night and I want to wish you the best of luck tonight! smile

[Edited on Jun 26, 2004 4:54PM]
whatisthelight:
I hope the new job is going well. I wish I could have made it last night but while taking out money at the ATM at the movie theater I saw my account was overdrawn. Negative money. Ouch! frown Hopefully I will see you soon and not just on Tuesdays. wink

Monday Jun 21, 2004

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Yeah. Apparently no one at all comments in my journal here anymore. I guess my entries just aren't that entertaining. Well, I'm sorry folks, I can't just make shit up. Actually I guess I can, but I don't. *sigh*

The last week has been really hard on me. Personal relationships are all outta whack all over the place. Fuck. And I've straightened a couple out,...
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cutnhalf:
Its hard to lose people that are important to you and it is even harder to lose thenm so close apart....I buried my grandmother(on my moms side) in April of 03....I was her caregiver for most of the 1 1/2 befor she died....Two months later I lost my grandpa(on my dads side).....It was rough and Iam very sorry you and your mom are going through that....I hope things are okay..... smile
ophelia:
I'm sorry that things have been going badly lately frown I hope that the LA move helps with that. Have you seen Synnove's group yet?

Thanks for commenting on my set with Tiamat kiss

Sunday Jun 20, 2004

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Three journals entries in one day? It must be some sort of record for me. Especially considering it's been a very low key day, I haven't even left my apartment.

The phone conversation I was so looking forward to didn't quite go as well as I had hoped. But you know what? I was honest and up front. And that's all I can give anyone....
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luminaire:
Hope everything's going well. Would be a shame for things to start sucking now, after they've been going so well. frown
vikprez:
I have been in and out all night, I will give you a call tomorrow and say hello smile

Sunday Jun 20, 2004

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Pushing. Pulling. In opposite directions with different intentions. But the forces meet at the same time and at the same place. And that place isn't happy. That place isn't magical like the place that was before. That place isn't necessarily bad either. It's a place that just feels strained. Pulled. Pushed. Tense. Unreal and uncomfortable and unsure and doubtful. And yet you're there. And isn't...
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vikprez:
Can you think of anything else I should pickup while I'm still in LA...I found an apartment guide and the LA Times...plus I have talked to alot of people that I'll fill you in about when I get back. Any other ideas?
monsvalentine:
smile. i like that. always thought if you see somebody without a smile, give 'em yours.

Sunday Jun 20, 2004

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I feel like I need a new journal entry, but I don't have anything to say.

I'm a little lost in my head right now.
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it_thing_hard_on:
Congrats on making it into the SG book.
obd:
Something nice [mom always said if you can't say soemthing nice, don't say anything at all]. Hpefully thingsa re going well.

Thursday Jun 17, 2004

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I'm sorry if I worried anyone last night with my journal entry. I was feeling a little lost, confused, and doubtful. Then I had a long, at times hard, phone conversation.

But in the end, I hung up the phone and went to bed with a smile on my face. So no worries.

So here's the big news that was causing (or at least heavily...
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treachery:
I moved here from cali to be with a girl it was a wierd adjustment to make but i like it.plus it doesnt feel like it needs to be permenant.now that the girl part is gone its a lil wierd.the only thing i dont understand is why would anyone ever want to move to LA when the bay area seems to kick so much ass.good luck with that maybe i will see you at karaoke this week.
adore:
What time did you call? I never heard my phone ring...I was out ant about until 1:30ish but as soon as I got back here I fell asleep for five hours because I had only had two hours in the car. My phone also doesn't ring in here because I have no reception. Did you try Jason's?

What are you doing tomorrow?

Monday Jun 14, 2004

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I just had an amazing weekend, with an amazing man. But now he's gone, and my cheeks are tear streaked.

When was the last time you walked around a city with someone you enjoy, hand in hand, and *really* explored it? To the point that you found new things and places in a city you thought you knew?

When was the last time you found...
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seth0067:
AH that airport securiry thing... ive done that TWICE now!
koleeta:
I haven't felt like that in awhile. I've gone through a phase like that and I like where I am now (i guess whatever ) but I'd like to do all that stuff again. sounds like heaven.

Tuesday Jun 08, 2004

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I almost went to the hospital last night. In fact, the EMTs who showed up with the ambulance that was called suggested it. But I'm poor with no insurance, so I just went home, though a bit wobbly and dizzily. It's a long story. blackeyed

I took the day off of work to hydrate myself and rest. I was still feeling odd and in pain this...
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fej:
Hi there..
smile
Hope things are better andf you have someone taking care of you..
a548456:
frownfrownfrown
Feel better soon *hugs* smile
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