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life is too hard. there's too much pain and hurt and struggle and not nearly enough happiness.

i give up.
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tiffanymarie:
i agree but when happiness does happen. it's far too important and makes you feel so much fucking better! i haven't been truly happy in god, i don't know how long. and yesterday i was just walking on air. it felt so fucking good. nothing brought me down yesterday. maybe it'll be like that today as well. i hope! take care. kiss
lotus:
that's not something I've ever considered...
giving up.
Might be cool.
Feel better doll. kiss
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i just burned my tongue on tea.

dmpsi is selling me his powerbook. i've pretty much decided on buying his, because it's so pretty, and if i don't i'll end up having to get a 12" ibook. sure, it would fit in my purse (read: medic bag) but it just seems a little too small to be working on all the time.

i'm excited to...
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drunkenpaw:
my main comp is a 12" powerbook. i can do everything i want on it, including light photoshop work (well, really gimp.) i should mention, though, that i tend to have one thing at a time maximized--that may or may not be your work style... but unless you are doing heavy image or movie editing, i'd say the 12" is just fine, especially if the price is right.

that said, i might get the 15" when this thing is up for replacement.

miao!!
kiki:
We need a boat then biggrin
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the word of the day today is 'twitterpated'. the band of the day is her space holiday. japanese gum...

it's not like i'm a slut
or that i really like to fuck
i just want every boy i see
to walk away with part of me
until there's nothing left to hold
until there's nothing left to hate
i appreciate your help
but even...
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onlyoblivion:
Hot girls and new computers are two of my favorite things. You need only add video games and high-quality cartoons and you'll be living the dream. I know you're on board for WoW (dont forget, it ships on the 23rd), but why don't I see any animation references in your profile? Don't tell me you're a live-action snob or something horrible like that...
genghiskhan:
thanks for the words in the "fan art" section. you always have really nice things to say. I'd do a portrait of you....but I feel like that one sketch that was done of you is about the most perfect thing I've ever seen done on this site, anything else has to look up at it.

regardless, thank you.
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i'm updating my journal again because i'm bored and i have too many comments.

i'm getting my septum pierced when i have the cash. in fact, as soon as i have the cash. positive reinforcement is my favourite. damn, i'm lonely. and out of cookies. what a horrible place to be. i can't wait to see stipud at christmastime. i'm going to go leave that...
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crazedlunatik:
what is up mall... long time no chatter...

whats new? whats the haps?

me same old same old... I am in a routine with this job I took... I lay about all day and then I sit at work for 4.5 hours.... then I come home and do nothing again....
fringes:
Im ashamed to admit Im not! But I was a member of PETA. I forgot to mention how like yourself Im disgusted by 'supposed 'bird lovers who imprison the poor creatures for their own pleasure.[or for that fact >any< caged animal!!] ps. I thought only retiree's lived in Victoria? I was born in Port Alberni and make a point of visiting the Island when ever I can. ie. Gulf islands-, broken islands, long beach, campbell river[chain of lakes] hornby,sandy island, sooke pothole park etc etc . I feel it beckoning me already smile Part 2- Oops did I not see Victoria mentioned in your journal the other day ???

[Edited on Nov 16, 2004 3:10AM]
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i think i have adult a.d.d.

i am feeling mopey, but what else is new? new computer soon, i hope.

edited to say: i bought a new t-shirt with the illustrations on it. i'm excited. i have to go to the bathroom but there's a cat on my lap. i did the dishes. i'm feeling much better. everyone go tell supremepizzaman that he's the greatest,...
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starla:
I think my friend andy has adult ADD and from what I remember, you're not as seriously annoying as he is smile

pee on your cat! Pee on your Cat!!!
pixxy:
aw i missed this entry <3 you are sweet and laying in bed i am grumpy and sitting on the couch. i love you too.
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so, i'm looking to buy a used/refurbished/cheap powerbook or ibook within the next two weeks. check out my post in the mac users group for more details, or just email me via my contact tab if you have any leads for me.

so, my life is, as always, a rollercoaster. things change from day to day. i still don't know where i'll be next month...
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jayfalkun:
You gotta enjoy that rollercoaster. Need the lows to tell the difference from the highs.
kundalini:
Most beautiful girl with freckles
ever. love
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i really would like to be geeking it up now. the open beta for world of warcraft has started, and i can't play my higher-level closed beta characters. halo 2 is out and i haven't an xbox to try it out on. the sims 2 is on the pc i no longer have access to. our weekly call of cthulhu pnp game has been put...
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tear_garden:
Hey Nerd!

smile

No, not you.. I was talking to myself..

I'm wasting time, energy and space..

What else is new?
shteevie:
I hate to leave the forty-third comment, but I'd open my door (and my gaming table) to any girl that pines for her 20-sided die.

Ever been to seattle?
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i'm lonely. my tummy hurts. i miss pixxy. my fingers are cold. i want to curl up into a tiny ball and die. a little.

things i need right now
music.
cuddles.
tea.
my sketchbook.
a kitten.
family.
someone who loves me.
a home.
something to depend on.
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notsoasianasian:
My hands are always warm, so if you're ever in San Diego and need to hold hands to keep warm, I'm here! I've been feelin a lil lonely these days as well
onlyoblivion:
I can solve about half of these problems from here. To wit:

Youre never alone on the Internet if youre lonely, its because youre not putting enough energy into making yourself available for interaction. For cold fingers, keep an eye on the professor from Missouri who invented heat pipe gloves. Sleeping is like a tiny slice of death, so try that before you resort to suicide, please. For violently gentle (yes, its really that drastic) music, try listening to the newish Kings of Convenience album; for something a little more aggressively modern, try a sample track from Lansing-Dreiden; or, failing that, just head over to Dirty Radio or the indie pop rocks channel of SomaFM. I cant offer cuddles right this second, but Im planning on making them happen soon, so find a cute girl or a kitten to tide you over. Id make some tea but, for the same reason I cant cuddle you, it wouldnt do much good; regardless, if youre so depressed you cant even make tea for yourself youve got a serious problem. If youre still planning on heading back to see the family during the holidays, at which point you could also pick up some things that would make finding a home a little easier, youll soon have all the family you can handle (December is a loooong month). And while it may be too distant to be really satisfying, I think its safe to say that everyone here loves you myself certainly not least of all.

Also, the scary/Ew! factor of the trolls is the point. tongue
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i saw the faint last night. it was good and bad in many ways, but in the end, i walked away in a good mood. i fucking love the faint. they're definitely in my top five at the moment. i'm in vancouver for the next two weeks -- cerah, tiamat and myself are planning a get-together to practice dancing for our pimp daddy tear_garden...
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crazedlunatik:
I still love my boring mal!

Hot girls are never boring.... they are just event challenged... smile

hehe I just came up with that and I think its clever...

enjoy vancouver and I am stilla ikea virgin...
daniyell:
your first time to ikea?! yikes, good thing you don't have a home to decorate, last time I went I intended to get curtains a a wall shelf, and spent $150!!!
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pixxy's house is so cold! brrr! at least i have a kitten to keep me company... and a vegan date bar...

tomorrow i go to vancouver to see the faint and my girlie friend FAVOURITE PERSON IN TEH WHOLE WIDE WORLD OMFG jocelynn. i shall miss the kitten.

THE OC TONIGHT OMG!
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amythia:
Hmm....



That cowboy hat? wink

Here for bigger pic

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amythia:
Yeah it was me.
And you're no creep smile
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i am so god damned alone.

i don't even know what to say...

sorry again about not being around..
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artchick:
oh GOD that made me laugh so hard.

love blush love biggrin love

You rock.
artchick:
PS.. I'm sorry you're lonely.

But on the bright side. At least you're lonely in Canada. You could be lonely in the US with a fuckwad president. smile

*gives you a bundle of non-lonely-fying kisses*
kiss kiss
kiss kiss kiss
kiss kiss
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the shrillest highs and lowest lows.

today is leningrad's birthday. he turns 12.. er, 21.
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tear_garden:
Highs and lows.... ever the rollercoaster, huh?

Part of the creative mind I think..

Creativity makes for a great life though, methinks..

smile
gitsie:
how was your halloween?