this morning i drifted in and out of vague dreams i cannot place... and i couldnt understand why the alarm was making my pillow vibrate.
such is perfect timing...
and i sat on the steps, bleary eyed zombie girl and watched the sun fall through the leaves on those trees out front (one day ill know their name) and the light shuddered on the cement...
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such is perfect timing...
and i sat on the steps, bleary eyed zombie girl and watched the sun fall through the leaves on those trees out front (one day ill know their name) and the light shuddered on the cement...
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acidevangelist:
My street cred on this site just went through the ROOF.
thejuanupsman:
yeah i know it gets so hard sometimes. i hope you find a way though. trust me when I say that sometimes sharing helps a lot. I really credit all of my friends for helping to get me through that last rut I was in. If there is ever anything I can do just let me know. Love you.
it's cold, but most of the storm is done...
and so i wait.
and so i wait.
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francis:
i been waiting ages, i haven't heard from you in a while missy
hope youre good...well, you know what i mean

hope youre good...well, you know what i mean
xaqary:
*dialing
and so i wait...
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arch_stanton:
Something about that black eyed guy tells me it is not a good wait. 

arch_stanton:
Oh, and this too
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nebelhex:
Okay, i'm not going to leave. It seams as if no one wants me to go anywhere. i'll stay put...
I can relate to being at a loss for words.. when I dont know what to say, I either say nothing at all or I rant about this-and-that.
I can relate to being at a loss for words.. when I dont know what to say, I either say nothing at all or I rant about this-and-that.
totovader:
Here's Benni:
and here's the Jets:

and here's the Jets:

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libertylux:
I've been wondering how you're doing! It's hard to keep up sometimes without having your journal on my friends page.
People are going to judge you regardless of how you appear on the inside or outside. The people that choose to cut you down are those who don't deserve your mindshare.
Each one of those tattoos tell a story in your life, wether they stay, get covered up, or get removed. It's just the same as how every event in your life makes a mark on your heart in some way. Sometimes second guessing isn't such a bad thing, it makes you explore yourself.
So mindwork through it and know that there are SO many people out there who think you are absolutely wonderful, and will never get the chance to really know you. Take care of you, Benni!
People are going to judge you regardless of how you appear on the inside or outside. The people that choose to cut you down are those who don't deserve your mindshare.
Each one of those tattoos tell a story in your life, wether they stay, get covered up, or get removed. It's just the same as how every event in your life makes a mark on your heart in some way. Sometimes second guessing isn't such a bad thing, it makes you explore yourself.
So mindwork through it and know that there are SO many people out there who think you are absolutely wonderful, and will never get the chance to really know you. Take care of you, Benni!
yaaka:
I hate tattoos on girls... or at least I thought I did until I saw yours... they are beautiful. At this point I can't even imagine you without them. Oh and sorry about this being... really late... I'm slow...
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fdnymedic:
hey girl..only 17 more days!!!
yes im counting down the days...how pathetic does that make me?
yes im counting down the days...how pathetic does that make me?
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polly:
dear Benni,
i think i probably missed your visit to SF. but i would still like to meet you very much eventually.
love,
Polly.
i think i probably missed your visit to SF. but i would still like to meet you very much eventually.
love,
Polly.
comicking:
Stupid me, I knew you were working and showed up for your regular shift, but forgot you switched them for the shower tomorrow. Have fun with that.. btw, that's the type for those things you don't want, right? And the only reason you're gonna be there is because of her, and not those things..? Or is it the kind for that other event? I forgot, you know, being stupid and all.
Talked to the parentals, got everything straightened out, set aside that block we talked about, and let me know.
Here's some weekend lovin for ya!
Talked to the parentals, got everything straightened out, set aside that block we talked about, and let me know.
Here's some weekend lovin for ya!
i don't remember dreaming, but i woke up chewing on my pillow... and i had no pants where there had been pants before.
weeeeeeeeeeeeird.
i get tattooed today... i'm kind of excited. i'm not sure exactly what we're doing to mr. right arm today, but it's been a few weeks. i'm itching for it.
the quote of the day: "it's like satan reincarnate in a...
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weeeeeeeeeeeeird.
i get tattooed today... i'm kind of excited. i'm not sure exactly what we're doing to mr. right arm today, but it's been a few weeks. i'm itching for it.
the quote of the day: "it's like satan reincarnate in a...
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thejuanupsman:
hope the tattooing went well. Don't eat Tad. I like him.
evil:
U
because work has been bad, and my dreams have been bad, and i've been eating ramen every day... i beseech you all to take part in the sweetest thing i've seen around here in awhile.
Nebelhex started a thread asking people to go to MistakesMade's journal and tell her that he loves her. in an act so mooshy i could vomit, i've done it......
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Nebelhex started a thread asking people to go to MistakesMade's journal and tell her that he loves her. in an act so mooshy i could vomit, i've done it......
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hermes:
You have your own bunker? Wow! I'm dead jealous! Do you have your own evil sidekicks and minions too then? 
ash:
jesus christ, I hate being on page 26 of your journal.
I miss you too .. but after I saw that set you did with apnea I havetn been able to comment in your journal because I start thinking abt that set you did with apnea and get all shy n stuff and start thinking abt that set you did with apnea ...
I hope work picks up for you and I actually get some. Did you go to my group? I feel horrible that some of my best photos arent up on that site, but some are in my sg folder.
I miss you too .. but after I saw that set you did with apnea I havetn been able to comment in your journal because I start thinking abt that set you did with apnea and get all shy n stuff and start thinking abt that set you did with apnea ...
I hope work picks up for you and I actually get some. Did you go to my group? I feel horrible that some of my best photos arent up on that site, but some are in my sg folder.
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arik:
that is an odd, weirdly boring dream. i think it means that you hate pizza delivery people
or boys. or dance classes.
hopefully that midget thing will work out soon
hopefully that midget thing will work out soon
nebelhex:
thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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jubjub:
wow! that dream sounds like a serious headtrip...keeping a dream journal is a fascinating thing i find, just reading a record of your sub-conscious thoughts can be very trippy, especially when wonderful patterns emerge..
dreams fascinate me and studies into them..always thought Anais nin's comment on how dreams are like another language which penetrats our unconscious directly and doesn't need to be analysis or interpreted in a cerebal way...it penetrates us in the way music does, through the senses...or something of the like....
anyway have beautiful adventures in the ocean of your unconscious
-rad photo too...mmm the ocean...
dreams fascinate me and studies into them..always thought Anais nin's comment on how dreams are like another language which penetrats our unconscious directly and doesn't need to be analysis or interpreted in a cerebal way...it penetrates us in the way music does, through the senses...or something of the like....
anyway have beautiful adventures in the ocean of your unconscious
-rad photo too...mmm the ocean...
comicking:
Ooops! Did I say Sunday... almost forgot again that this Sunday is reserved for my gamers group (all night and into Monday cause of the holiday). I cancelled on them last week to go see a good friend and meet another. They were upset about that, so I'm required to be there this Sunday or face castration... ouch!
I'll see ya sometime.
I'll see ya sometime.
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fringes:
Are you the MESIAH weve waited soo..... long for?[children/rejoice] Nothing wrong with argueing! Its the truest form of unhindered expression and brings everything out into the open.[albeit sometimes hurtful] Nothing makes me happier than those carefree days on the beach. Its where[airbreathing] LIFE originated![Heavy heh?]
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[Edited on Aug 30, 2004 5:10AM]
evil:
miss you