man it's fucking stormy in Seattle. really high winds and heavy rain... it's nice for a change from the usual pissy drizzle crap we usually have.
sometimes life is kind enough to give you a big bitch slap to set your stupid ass straight. not to go into details, but for a few months I've been feeling a bit down, sorry for myself. I try not to let it show. to the point of lots of thoughts of suicide. the old "45" plan again. well this morning life let me know in no uncertain terms to get over myself. my kidney failure was due to high blood pressure. I arrived at dialysis this morning and a guy I know from the clinic I used last years was here. he has diabetes. he's about 25, he just got out of the hospital where he has been for the last three months recovering from having his right foot amputated. kinda puts my own life into perspective. it could be a hell of a lot worse, I'm lucky that my biggest problem seems to be loneliness. I feel like a complete asshole...
sometimes life is kind enough to give you a big bitch slap to set your stupid ass straight. not to go into details, but for a few months I've been feeling a bit down, sorry for myself. I try not to let it show. to the point of lots of thoughts of suicide. the old "45" plan again. well this morning life let me know in no uncertain terms to get over myself. my kidney failure was due to high blood pressure. I arrived at dialysis this morning and a guy I know from the clinic I used last years was here. he has diabetes. he's about 25, he just got out of the hospital where he has been for the last three months recovering from having his right foot amputated. kinda puts my own life into perspective. it could be a hell of a lot worse, I'm lucky that my biggest problem seems to be loneliness. I feel like a complete asshole...
you're right sometimes we just need a little perspective to get over the hump...
my friends memorial was today and i couldn't work up the nerve to go.