Augh, Ive only been awake for 5 minutes and already this day has gone to shit. I feel like the world is crashing down around me all the time and im stuck in this untouched zone. Its not like i dont care that everythings crashing down, its the fact that I feel like i cant do anything about it. I feel helpless, like im being strapped in for the ride against my will. I can see it all happening, I know why its happening but I cant reach out and stop it. I cant stop myself. I just let it take me. Other days it feels like im in a glass cage and everyone i know is watching me, afraid of my next move, afraid of what i'll say or do. Im in the glass cage but i know that they feel like they're the ones walking on glass..I hate being watched, analyzed, judged in anyway, but its constant. I need to bust out of this trap and live my life like i want to live it! 