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i'm pretty much off crutches, I take them with me just to be on the safe side though, i'm really looking forward to being rid of them.
Everything else is boiling down to me being a fuckup. I took the last few days to think things through about what I had with Sarah. Once they were gone I realised exactly how good I had it. I've never felt like such a bopolar shitheel, and looking back I can't even justify or rationalize my train of thought. I've pulled my head out of my ass and patched things back up with her. I just can't believe that I came so close to losing her completely. I still have some work cut out for me, as I do need to build back the trust that she had in me, which is fine. I'd rather have to re-lay the foundations again than have to regret how badly I fucked up.
I don't know whats wrong with me, or why I acted like such an asshole.