zophael

Okay, so everything has pretty much sucked lately.

I haven't posted any pictures from my trip because I'm absolutely worn out and I have trouble even getting online to check my mail. I haven't been this depressed in a long time and it scares me a little bit.

I was in the hospital last week and they have no idea what was wrong with me, but there's a good chance that it's stress related. It's a medically proven fact that stress can effect your blood sugar levels and I believe that coupled with dehydration is what did me in.

After a particularly stressfull day yesterday involving work stuffs I was not feeling well again. I quickly took the medicine that they gave me though and went to sleep and this morning I'm not too bad. My stomach is upset but that's pretty much it.

I can't decide what to do about making everything better, but this time I'm determined to work around all of the issues in my life and not let the depression get to me. I think that if I can stay focused on this task, things won't be as scary. I just get really worried that I will get as depressed as I was a long time ago and do something that I shouldn't.

But, instead of thinking about that, I'm focusing on what I can do to make things better.

I will stay better.

That's what I'm going to keep repeating.