Today is the start of the rest of my life.
Lee came round last night with his bf and plied me with this alchopop called 'Glitz' and it's full of sparkly bits.
And things were going well, having a good bitchfest and a laugh as usual. But then he had to go home early because he has a cold and was just feeling bleh. Fair enough.
By now it's only 7pm and I've drunk a whole bottle of this stuff because james (the bf) doesnt drink and Lee was on Paracetemol so he couldn't drink either.
And so i got really depressed then my dad came in the front room and was all like 'why haven't you done the ironing etc' and i was like 'because i didn't feel like it' and he was like 'have you been drinking?' and i just started to cry. Now me and my dad NEVER talk about matters close to the heart. It just isnt done. So i didn't want to tell him for ages then my brother just came in and said 'it's ben isnt it?' BOOM out comes the whole story. Suprisingly my dad was a bit more sympathetic than my mom who said he was probably having an affar with her all along...nice one mom... So yeah my dad rambles on and on for like 10000 years about how i have to get out there and get on with life and how i should do better and i have opportunity. and he said i really need to cut loose my ties from him.
First sensible piece of advice he's ever given me.
Ever.
So today I have broken all contact with him.
There is no way I can be friends with him whilst she is around. It's driving me mental and preventing me from moving on.
I Also went out and walked the dog over the fields to get some real air.
I'm now going to work with my mom to socialise a bit.
I sent off for lots of prospectuses for uni, (leeds, sussex, lancaster and bangor)
Have a good birthday and arrange to go out with some of my college friends.
(having dinner at frankie and benny's with Lee and James...I looove that resturant.
Go to town and hand out CVs for jobs.
Next up is to pass my driving test (13th oct)
Go to my old college and sort out applying for uni.
work like a dog to get lots of money.
Travel in the new year.
This is how it's going to go. Nice small achievable goals insted of trying to go at it all at once.
We'll get there guys
Lee came round last night with his bf and plied me with this alchopop called 'Glitz' and it's full of sparkly bits.
And things were going well, having a good bitchfest and a laugh as usual. But then he had to go home early because he has a cold and was just feeling bleh. Fair enough.
By now it's only 7pm and I've drunk a whole bottle of this stuff because james (the bf) doesnt drink and Lee was on Paracetemol so he couldn't drink either.
And so i got really depressed then my dad came in the front room and was all like 'why haven't you done the ironing etc' and i was like 'because i didn't feel like it' and he was like 'have you been drinking?' and i just started to cry. Now me and my dad NEVER talk about matters close to the heart. It just isnt done. So i didn't want to tell him for ages then my brother just came in and said 'it's ben isnt it?' BOOM out comes the whole story. Suprisingly my dad was a bit more sympathetic than my mom who said he was probably having an affar with her all along...nice one mom... So yeah my dad rambles on and on for like 10000 years about how i have to get out there and get on with life and how i should do better and i have opportunity. and he said i really need to cut loose my ties from him.
First sensible piece of advice he's ever given me.
Ever.
So today I have broken all contact with him.
There is no way I can be friends with him whilst she is around. It's driving me mental and preventing me from moving on.
I Also went out and walked the dog over the fields to get some real air.
I'm now going to work with my mom to socialise a bit.
I sent off for lots of prospectuses for uni, (leeds, sussex, lancaster and bangor)
Have a good birthday and arrange to go out with some of my college friends.
(having dinner at frankie and benny's with Lee and James...I looove that resturant.
Go to town and hand out CVs for jobs.
Next up is to pass my driving test (13th oct)
Go to my old college and sort out applying for uni.
work like a dog to get lots of money.
Travel in the new year.
This is how it's going to go. Nice small achievable goals insted of trying to go at it all at once.
We'll get there guys
Come to Leeds - it rocks!
x
Keep your chin up!