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ok, so i had a shitty day at work. came home, drank my face off watching tv reruns. eventually found my way to the internet. watched a long ass video of one of my high school boyfriends getting married (he posted his "chuppah" video) and cried like a bitch. it was so beautiful and sweet. and now i'm sitting here half crying, wondering why i'm talking about this on my lil corner of a porn site, and why the video of some guy i dated well over a decade ago gets me all teary, and what its all about.

i think i'm just still a little drunk and tired and needed a good cry and maybe i'm tired. my head hurts and i'm out of cigarettes and i'm a little bit crazy and oh yeah, i'm tired.

i miss my boyfriend.
i should quit smoking.
i should go to bed.
i should also count myself lucky that i think i found someone who understands my late night crazies.
in the words of someone not so famous... "that is all..."