zoomusikgrl

you ever feel like there is so much going on in your head that you just want to claw your face off?
yeah, it's been like that lately.
*le sigh*
let's see if i can squeeze a little bit of it out, if only to relieve the pressure.

gonzo77 got a cat. his name is joe. joe likes to sleep in my bed. therefore, when joe gets hungry at 5 am, zoomusikgrl gets to feed joe. it's all good though. our little makeshift family appears to be quite content at the moment. well, mostly. there is a noticeable absence around these parts. but i won't go into that. everything will work itself out, i am confident...

i've been hanging out with bri_bri and derceto a bit more often lately. which is awesome. i have NOT been spending enough time with arbitraria or jadeangel lately. which is epic fail.

i just noticed that my ex-fiancees account on here just expired. we might hang out soon, actually. i've become really good friends with his best friend. the best friend recently had some good news that deserves celebrating. so pending that good news officially coming through, we decided to take him out together to celebrate. it's funny- i think about him now, and i feel nothing. i'm totally over it. totally fine with it. periodically we even text, albeit very briefly. so he's no longer the source of the heartache in my life. and that's good. maybe someday we can even be friends again.

there is in fact, another source of heartache. but i'm sure with time, this too shall pass. it pains me greatly to have to shove someone out the front door of my life with their shoes untied, but as i learn more about myself, i've learned when to say enough is enough. you have hurt me one too many times and i am done with you until you can play nice. no more crying, no more nightmares. i know he will be back- they always come back. certain friendships are too strong to deny the inevitable forever. but for now, somebody needs to get their shit straight. and they can break some other girls foolish heart in the process. i deserve better, far better.

...AAAAANYWAY!

my birthday is next weekend! super fun birthday times! i'm very very excited to turn 28. i had high hopes for 27, but i stumbled a bit this year. i think i've finally come to a point where i can say i've learned my lesson, and i believe that i will be putting that knowledge to good use and have an excellent year.

my birthday present to myself this year...plane tickets. very very inexpensive plane tickets that i had some help with. yes kids, i am going to spend the bulk of next week soaking up the sun in florida with this awesome guy. beaches, beer, and adventure await. i'm really excited to get the fuck out of town, get away from all the grey, rainy skies, go somewhere where i don't get cell phone reception, and just fucking relax with a really fun and amazing person. i've never taken a relaxing style vacation- i always go to cities and spend the entire trip pounding the pavement looking at monuments. i end up more exhausted than before i left. so i'm disappearing onto a plane, and me and my dude friend are gonna fucking party.

maybe while i'm down there i will go confront my biological father too. maybe.

ok, i think that's it for now. hope you are all well, and i'll catch you on the FB!