zoomusikgrl

hey hey all. thanks for all the kind thoughts and whatnot. it made me happy.

i think getting that last huge blog out of my system was good for my soul. this weekend i really feel like i've hit a turning point in dealing with all this. i spent the entire time amongst friends, just "fillin' up on love". and no, not in a dirty way you pervs. i think i'm finally at the point where i can say this is all HIS loss, and actually mean it too. heh. sucker.

last night i had a dream that i had a new boyfriend. he was kinda tall, pale and skinny. he had messy black and blue hair, incredibly blue eyes, a well-groomed beard, and lots of tattoos. he was saying something really sweet and smiling at me. it was kind of awesome- but at the same time i woke up and thought, "thank god it was just a dream!" i really am content being single, and i plan to stay that way for a long time. the other night i indulged in the fantasy of dating someone that i'm close with. after about two minutes i just felt exhausted and annoyed.

i don't need a relationship. all the positive attention i need, i'm getting from my friends. and there's no drama. they just love me for who i am, and that's why i give them everything in return.

anyway. tomorrow night gonzo and i are seeing morrissey. which means i gotta dig up my gheyface and my limp wrists.