well first of all, thank you all SOOOO fucking much for yr support. you have no idea how much it means to me....wow. you guys have truly pulled me out of the pit.
i'm keeping this brief for now. i'm looking to be packed this week and i would like to move out of that apartment for good next sunday. if you are seriously that bored and want to help, pm me for details.
i've brought the essentials to my parents house- unfortunately my compy does not yet have access to the internet so i'm posting from my moms computer. which means all the millions of pics trapped on my hard drive will not be uploaded until the internet happens. i was behind on posting them as it is and now i'm just buried lol. so please be patient with that.
i think the worst is behind me now, even though today has been pretty shitty. this weekend was fucking amazing up until last night! friday was DOTM, saturday was kickball SGNJ vs SGNY (we lost, oh well) followed by drinks and then followed by an elvis themed party at my coworkers place up the road. i was feeling downright normal- didn't need a xanax, actually ate until i was full without feeling queasy- and then i get a psychotic email from my "best friend" ippagoggy about what a rotten person i am and how she's sick of me poisoning her life. uuuuhhhh....right. yeah. so i was up until 3 am emailing her, telling her where to stick it. anyone else want to break up with me these days? any other great friends feel like kicking me when i'm down? might as well do it now before i get really fucking angry.
today would've been fine had i not accidentally logged into my brothers facebook on this computer and see pics of gonzo with his new gf (same great hair, now with less drama!). yeah, forgot to tell my siblings to delete him and ippagoggy and her bf off of all their friends lists. and then i had to go pack up stuff. and once again, i can't eat or feel relaxed or anything. so maybe i will take one of those pills. i just don't want to have to rely on them.
god i have so much else to say. but i think i'll barf it all out as a ms word file later tonight and post it another time so that i can get the words right. i still feel bad clogging up yr "my sg" page with all my woes, even though you all keep telling me that it's okay to. i guess it'll take a long time for me to not feel like i have to apologize for my actions/personality/etc. i just realized that i've been doing that for years now and it's going to be hard to break the habit. but it's time...it's totally fucking time.
ok well, hope you kids are all doing well. i love you!
xoxo
zoo
i'm keeping this brief for now. i'm looking to be packed this week and i would like to move out of that apartment for good next sunday. if you are seriously that bored and want to help, pm me for details.
i've brought the essentials to my parents house- unfortunately my compy does not yet have access to the internet so i'm posting from my moms computer. which means all the millions of pics trapped on my hard drive will not be uploaded until the internet happens. i was behind on posting them as it is and now i'm just buried lol. so please be patient with that.
i think the worst is behind me now, even though today has been pretty shitty. this weekend was fucking amazing up until last night! friday was DOTM, saturday was kickball SGNJ vs SGNY (we lost, oh well) followed by drinks and then followed by an elvis themed party at my coworkers place up the road. i was feeling downright normal- didn't need a xanax, actually ate until i was full without feeling queasy- and then i get a psychotic email from my "best friend" ippagoggy about what a rotten person i am and how she's sick of me poisoning her life. uuuuhhhh....right. yeah. so i was up until 3 am emailing her, telling her where to stick it. anyone else want to break up with me these days? any other great friends feel like kicking me when i'm down? might as well do it now before i get really fucking angry.
today would've been fine had i not accidentally logged into my brothers facebook on this computer and see pics of gonzo with his new gf (same great hair, now with less drama!). yeah, forgot to tell my siblings to delete him and ippagoggy and her bf off of all their friends lists. and then i had to go pack up stuff. and once again, i can't eat or feel relaxed or anything. so maybe i will take one of those pills. i just don't want to have to rely on them.
god i have so much else to say. but i think i'll barf it all out as a ms word file later tonight and post it another time so that i can get the words right. i still feel bad clogging up yr "my sg" page with all my woes, even though you all keep telling me that it's okay to. i guess it'll take a long time for me to not feel like i have to apologize for my actions/personality/etc. i just realized that i've been doing that for years now and it's going to be hard to break the habit. but it's time...it's totally fucking time.
ok well, hope you kids are all doing well. i love you!
xoxo
zoo
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just kidding, but i figured you would know that