hey.
so i'm alive, i promise. i've been enjoying being offline a great deal. more time to drink. no more of that hard stuff for me for a while. ha! i say that now, i'm sure i'll be in the skin soon enough.
no more wardrobe gig! i only work 7 hours a day now.
i have to get crackin on stiles's jacket this week too. trying to track down a special type of thread.
lots of stuff planned for the year:
vnv nation and vast are playing nyc soon.
seeing wicked this week for my lurvely strumpet's birthday.
long weekend in chicago next month with *just* the boyfriend. how nice. he and i have never taken a vacation alone before. we're excited.
going to LONDON in may with gonzo, strumpet, and bee. can't. fucking. wait! i've never been to europe, only the middle east.
camping plans for the weekend after that with bee's band.
BONNAROO- i'm trying to go. it's the same weekend that we ship out costumes for the little mermaid on broadway, so i may not make it. but i have a gut feeling that i'll be there. so we shall see. fucking disney.
east coast camping with sgnj sometime after that. i'm really psyched for that one.
still working on trying to get that set posted. or rather, i'm still waiting to hear back from tmronin about it. sorry kids, i'm 'puter 'tarted. i'll do what i can. i didn't forget.
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hey, i miss you guys. and i have a question for ya...
can any of you come up with 10 good reasons why i should still try to be an sg?
i did sg for fun. i like taking pictures- i like being creative, and coming up with ideas for sets, making costumes, arranging locations, stuff like that. i like showing off what a hot, awesome chick i am. but right now, it seems like too much of a hassle. i want to be pink, but i don't want to agonize over it.
why wait 6 months for an appointment with a staff photog when i have tons of friends who shoot? why pester staff every time i have a theme idea to see if it's okay or not? why scour the trend reports every few weeks to make sure i'm not making any "mistakes"? i don't want to agonize over the logic behind why some really amazing sets are rejected while some "eenh" sets are accepted. i don't want to wait 4 months for photoshopping. i certainly don't want to spend $200 on primping and clothing for an unusuable set. to theme or not to theme? jesus christmas! it's just not fun anymore.
why not just shoot my own shit without worrying about all the rules and post it in the groups?
i mean yeah, $500 is great. free underwear is great. pink posting privileges? awesome. comment love makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. and let's not forget the prestige of being a real suicidegirl, which is why i wanted to join in the first place.
*shrugs*
i'm already a sg at heart. and i've got a whole drawer full of panties. i don't need sg to affirm what a sexy, strong, intelligent, interesting, fun, (insert yr own adjective here) punk rock chick i am. i'm not going to be any less of those things if i'm not pink either. i kick ass, plain and simple.
and it's not like staff doesn't know where to find me if they really want me to model.
so, yeah. this isn't me running off to one of those copycat sites out of spite. (i have no desire to be a model- i really *just* wanted to be an sg.) i don't care about any of the shit you hear about off the site that may or may not be true. this isn't me bitching about the contract, or staff, or not wanting to play by the rules. this is not me being angry or bitter. this is just me sick of the past 365 days thinking "i'll fight to the death to go pink!" (yeah, it's my 1 year sg-niversary on wednesday. which means i actually have to *pay* for the next year. if i forget to pay up and go grey for a day, don't panic.)
i'm not going to take down my sets, or get myself zotted- i still want to be a member. i enjoy all you lucky fuckers on my friends list, even if i don't keep in touch as much as i'd like to. sg has brought a whole lot of joy into my life, and i like being here.
i've just grown weary of the struggle for something that seems unattainable.
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so yeah. after all that, i'm curious if any of you can change my mind.
hope yr all well!
so i'm alive, i promise. i've been enjoying being offline a great deal. more time to drink. no more of that hard stuff for me for a while. ha! i say that now, i'm sure i'll be in the skin soon enough.
no more wardrobe gig! i only work 7 hours a day now.
i have to get crackin on stiles's jacket this week too. trying to track down a special type of thread.
lots of stuff planned for the year:
vnv nation and vast are playing nyc soon.
seeing wicked this week for my lurvely strumpet's birthday.
long weekend in chicago next month with *just* the boyfriend. how nice. he and i have never taken a vacation alone before. we're excited.
going to LONDON in may with gonzo, strumpet, and bee. can't. fucking. wait! i've never been to europe, only the middle east.
camping plans for the weekend after that with bee's band.
BONNAROO- i'm trying to go. it's the same weekend that we ship out costumes for the little mermaid on broadway, so i may not make it. but i have a gut feeling that i'll be there. so we shall see. fucking disney.
east coast camping with sgnj sometime after that. i'm really psyched for that one.
still working on trying to get that set posted. or rather, i'm still waiting to hear back from tmronin about it. sorry kids, i'm 'puter 'tarted. i'll do what i can. i didn't forget.
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hey, i miss you guys. and i have a question for ya...
can any of you come up with 10 good reasons why i should still try to be an sg?
i did sg for fun. i like taking pictures- i like being creative, and coming up with ideas for sets, making costumes, arranging locations, stuff like that. i like showing off what a hot, awesome chick i am. but right now, it seems like too much of a hassle. i want to be pink, but i don't want to agonize over it.
why wait 6 months for an appointment with a staff photog when i have tons of friends who shoot? why pester staff every time i have a theme idea to see if it's okay or not? why scour the trend reports every few weeks to make sure i'm not making any "mistakes"? i don't want to agonize over the logic behind why some really amazing sets are rejected while some "eenh" sets are accepted. i don't want to wait 4 months for photoshopping. i certainly don't want to spend $200 on primping and clothing for an unusuable set. to theme or not to theme? jesus christmas! it's just not fun anymore.
why not just shoot my own shit without worrying about all the rules and post it in the groups?
i mean yeah, $500 is great. free underwear is great. pink posting privileges? awesome. comment love makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. and let's not forget the prestige of being a real suicidegirl, which is why i wanted to join in the first place.
*shrugs*
i'm already a sg at heart. and i've got a whole drawer full of panties. i don't need sg to affirm what a sexy, strong, intelligent, interesting, fun, (insert yr own adjective here) punk rock chick i am. i'm not going to be any less of those things if i'm not pink either. i kick ass, plain and simple.
and it's not like staff doesn't know where to find me if they really want me to model.
so, yeah. this isn't me running off to one of those copycat sites out of spite. (i have no desire to be a model- i really *just* wanted to be an sg.) i don't care about any of the shit you hear about off the site that may or may not be true. this isn't me bitching about the contract, or staff, or not wanting to play by the rules. this is not me being angry or bitter. this is just me sick of the past 365 days thinking "i'll fight to the death to go pink!" (yeah, it's my 1 year sg-niversary on wednesday. which means i actually have to *pay* for the next year. if i forget to pay up and go grey for a day, don't panic.)
i'm not going to take down my sets, or get myself zotted- i still want to be a member. i enjoy all you lucky fuckers on my friends list, even if i don't keep in touch as much as i'd like to. sg has brought a whole lot of joy into my life, and i like being here.
i've just grown weary of the struggle for something that seems unattainable.
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so yeah. after all that, i'm curious if any of you can change my mind.
hope yr all well!
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ok time to get to bed...ive got to be up in like an hour...thanks to daylight savings time [which is a scam