zombiexo

I realized today:
That it's not enough to know every spot to make me feel,
or to make me feel all the things I've never felt and have no emotions attached,
or to want to know all my secrets and to want to figure out what makes me feel and what makes me me,
or to be my best friend, to care about me more than anyone else does, but nothing else.

I realized today:
that I can't make you be what I want you to be, and that you will never be what I need,
though I do need you in my life, I realized that none of you will ever love me the way that I love you,
and that I need to let you go. Especially my best friend.

I realized today:
that I love way too much, and while I never want to stop, because that would change me, I need to stop letting it hurt me.
I need to learn how to love but not let it consume me.