zombie_nirbhao

I have the world's most righteous sense of self entitlement right now

and it's pissing me off

so I'm telling you--- I keep thinking, "why do I need to tell someone? why can't I just know it?"

I'm not going to talk about me above superficial small talk for the rest of the week (saturday. on sunday I can piss and moan all I want [which hopefully won't be at all. it's like quitting-- the less you do it, the less you *need* to] so I don't have to bargain with myself later about when it ends)

my life is *awesome.* no more focusing on the shit and being sad about it!

I am not the center of the universe. people are busy and sad for reasons that have nothing to do with me.

just because I don't want to be self centered doesn't mean I shouldn't admit to it, acknowledge it and name it, so I can change it

I've been doing a lot of refusing to believe things I don't like lately

I don't like those things, though

anyway
starting......


now

that lasted a whole fourteen minutes.