I think I might be getting manic. I can't even see any negative aspects, but a person usually doesn't while manic.
it would be wonderful if I just had a healthy level of euphoria. I would love it if my life went on with the positive intensity. cottage cheese, chocolate soy milk, and tea are unbelievably delicious. it's everything, too-- taste and texture. and music! oh my goodness. every song I listen to is just my absolute favorite song ever in the universe. when I cleaned my ears tonight, it was nearly orgasmic. now I've got clean sheets against my toes (one of my favorite sensations to begin with) and I could just rub my toes against my blankets forever. finally, everything is fucking hilarious. HILARIOUS! I am having so much fun. ridiculous amounts of fun.
except with the backstabbers and gossips that I work with. and this righteous respiratory infection. I could do without those things.
owwww......
I also feel very mortal. I used to feel like this in a disappointed or catastrophic manner, ideating around death all the time, planning and worrying. right now, it's much more peaceful. I don't have scenarios in mind, but I'm not afraid. and it's not a reckless fearless, it's more of a liberated and free fearless. I feel like everything is okay now.
it would be wonderful if I just had a healthy level of euphoria. I would love it if my life went on with the positive intensity. cottage cheese, chocolate soy milk, and tea are unbelievably delicious. it's everything, too-- taste and texture. and music! oh my goodness. every song I listen to is just my absolute favorite song ever in the universe. when I cleaned my ears tonight, it was nearly orgasmic. now I've got clean sheets against my toes (one of my favorite sensations to begin with) and I could just rub my toes against my blankets forever. finally, everything is fucking hilarious. HILARIOUS! I am having so much fun. ridiculous amounts of fun.
except with the backstabbers and gossips that I work with. and this righteous respiratory infection. I could do without those things.
owwww......
I also feel very mortal. I used to feel like this in a disappointed or catastrophic manner, ideating around death all the time, planning and worrying. right now, it's much more peaceful. I don't have scenarios in mind, but I'm not afraid. and it's not a reckless fearless, it's more of a liberated and free fearless. I feel like everything is okay now.
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There are still things in this world that are just.
Ear cleaning!!! --- bless! --- it's one of my FAVOURITE things in this world... I'm a cotton-bud junkie... every morning both lug-holes get a good swishing... not so much about cleaning (they're fairly spotless with that regime in place) --- it's purely a pleasure thing!
And there I was thinking it was just some kind of odd fetish that I have --- well, maybe it's just you and me who have the fetish...
you said Ideating ---- *swoons* .....