zombette

i just tried to post some pictures i managed to take at Havana before my stupid camera batteries died.. and they wont come up! well, im sure i will figure this minor glitch out eventually.. there were only three.. one of Bully and me being cute as buttons, one of Elsie and i laughing so hard about something we look like we are about to explode, and one of Vivid and me. Vivid, of course, looks amazing as fuck. i wasnt drunk yet so i was still a little nervous being that close to so much hotness....
i had such a good time. i kinda surprised myself. i have social anxiety disorder and ive been diagnosed with all sorts of shit that basically boil down to unless i trap myself in a cage for the entirety of my life, i will be frightened and miserable.
i love proving doctors wrong.
my only regret is that my FUCKING camera died on me so early in the evening... i sincerely for serious (for cereal) cant wait to see when alissa puts up pics...
im kind of sad today. probably because im smoking too many cigarettes and i still dont really know anything about the status of my divorce. and i still dont have a car; thats definitely contributing to this sense of depression. it was so amazing in columbus and here... well, is just here.
im sure, to be fair, that there are amazing places in michigan too... in fact i KNOW there are... but its not like i can walk to any of em. i can walk to rite aid or speedway. i can BARELY make it to meijers.
fuck this whiney shit.
rather than whine about my lot in life, i am going to be the boss of myself and turn my frown upside down. im going to live through this and when i do, by god, im going to be a fucking superstar. the kind that chews up bullets and spits out carpet tacks.
fucking unstoppable.