zombette

dear god im so tired. my eyes are closing of their own free will. but, valiantly, i am plowing forward anyway.
i dont know why i write. it makes me feel better, in a way. its my version of a band-aid for all the cuts and scrapes in my brain.
i have a baby shower in a couple of days, and a photoshoot on the 28th. god bless tracey for driving me, otherwise i never would have been able to do it. and its nude, but only an hour. and hell, thats an extra $100 in my wallet.
its weird how i can be shy sometimes, but im not shy about being naked. hell, everyone else is naked under their clothes anyway.
i just heard about this Miss Horrorfest contest thats coming up. it would be terribly exciting to submit an entry, but i think in order to submit any kind of video, i need a video camera. thats it. the camcorder option on my phone takes videos, but they wont connect to youtube properly. and my cell phone takes 15 second videos, which i noticed that youtube DOES accept, but 15 seconds? how the hell am i supposed to do anything in fifteen seconds?
so im trying to find a friend that lives near me who has a digital camcorder. i think that way, i should be capable of doing what i want to do. i didnt know SG had so many contests and such. but i dont think i really have much hope of winning anything.
still, it doesnt hurt to try. it would hurt my savings account plenty if i bought a camcorder, though. and id still need a director. particularly someone who knows what they are doing; because i looked at some of the video submissions of the past applicants and of course last years winner, and they are professional as hell.
my eyelids are closing on me. my typing is slowing down. we have no more air conditioning, i guess it broke today while i was at school so its stuffy and muggy and probably in the high 80s to the mid 90s in here. i need a nap.