took a test drive down (up?) to west bloomfield today; which is where my soon-to-be doctor is located. lovely area. really. it takes a little less than an hour to get there and im really so excited i could blow up at any second.
im getting lip injections. i cant believe i am going through with this and spending this money on myself and im not going to feel guilty or anything. i am REALLY excited.
toni said shes going to try to get hers done the same day... im all giddy and nervous. maybe i felt this way when i was 16 and got my first tattoo. i cant remember. this is going to be less permanent, of course, but still, wow, its my FACE. and im ALTERING it. well, the doctor is altering it, but you know what i mean. no longer will the same old me be staring at myself in the mirror. from now on i shall be Zombette the Extravagant. Zombette the Free. Zombette the Single SG with the Fat Lip.
haha!
dennis was sick today and couldnt work on my arm... ear infection. he penciled me in for wednesday at 10am instead. i figured that was just fine with me. i am really anxious to get this finished. i have to admit im sort of enjoying myself today. i wouldnt bother to mention it, but its such a strange occurance and such a large break from the ordinary that i decided it deemed pronouncing. im excited and i have butterflies about tomorrow. im excited and wondering when alan is coming up to visit. im excited to do another shoot next month with alissa. i guess im just finally letting myself be happy about things that are going well in my life. my life and self-confidence has taken such a beating, its really rather amazing i can still feel these things; these butterflies and happy nerves.
good for me.
and one day i will have my own place, and a reliable car. one day i will be self-sufficient and i wont have to ask everyone for help. one day ill be in a position where i can be the one helping for a change. after all that my friends and family have been through with me; i cannot wait for that day to come.
im getting lip injections. i cant believe i am going through with this and spending this money on myself and im not going to feel guilty or anything. i am REALLY excited.
toni said shes going to try to get hers done the same day... im all giddy and nervous. maybe i felt this way when i was 16 and got my first tattoo. i cant remember. this is going to be less permanent, of course, but still, wow, its my FACE. and im ALTERING it. well, the doctor is altering it, but you know what i mean. no longer will the same old me be staring at myself in the mirror. from now on i shall be Zombette the Extravagant. Zombette the Free. Zombette the Single SG with the Fat Lip.
haha!
dennis was sick today and couldnt work on my arm... ear infection. he penciled me in for wednesday at 10am instead. i figured that was just fine with me. i am really anxious to get this finished. i have to admit im sort of enjoying myself today. i wouldnt bother to mention it, but its such a strange occurance and such a large break from the ordinary that i decided it deemed pronouncing. im excited and i have butterflies about tomorrow. im excited and wondering when alan is coming up to visit. im excited to do another shoot next month with alissa. i guess im just finally letting myself be happy about things that are going well in my life. my life and self-confidence has taken such a beating, its really rather amazing i can still feel these things; these butterflies and happy nerves.
good for me.
and one day i will have my own place, and a reliable car. one day i will be self-sufficient and i wont have to ask everyone for help. one day ill be in a position where i can be the one helping for a change. after all that my friends and family have been through with me; i cannot wait for that day to come.
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holllerrrrrrrrrrrr.
Also, see you at the baby shower. I have no idea what to get a kid. I might get a scary clown painting for the wall. My sister and I had one when we were little.