oh lordy lou. i wonder if there is a way to make the font bigger on this. im finding it difficult to read my own writing. then again, maybe this is normal to everyone else and im just going blind.
thats one of my biggest fears; you know. going blind.
i mean... my books.. i have to be able to read my books. my books are my only refuge from my own life sometimes when things get bad... all my old friends are in my books and they never die (or you can skip the parts where they do; or, if youre feeling weepy, read them anyway)...
im scared of being blind. my vision is poor anyway, and its getting worse every year. its something thats always frightened me. i had to wear glasses when i was like 6 years old.
sometimes i think little things are fascinating. i stare at those little cone shaped shells on beaches and think about the lives of the creatures who made them. how can you make something so intricate and beautiful with no real thought? or a better example; orchids. orchids serve no purpose that i know of. they are immensely hard to cultivate and take care of; they need the exact amount of heat and light and water and so forth to live, and they dont even smell pretty. they just LOOK pretty. so delicate. how can something be so delicate and perfectly formed with no predetermined design?
im trying to keep my head above water. i created a website last night; i dont really know why, i was bored and i felt like doing something. its www.zombettesuicide.com
im not sure if its up for the public yet. its supposed to be. i hope i can make little changes and additions in the future if the spirit moves me because i dont approve of the pink background. but i never was good with computers and im personally a little impressed that i got it working at all.
just viewed joleighs giggles set for the first time. and the second. i viewed it back to back. that girl smiles and she looks just like milla jovovich, whom i have had a crush on and wanted to be ever since seeing the fifth element.
thats one of my problems. i want to BE other people. i dont particularly want to be MYSELF usually.
i know what thats called. thats called being in your twenties and having no real solid purpose in your life. its all very confusing.
just trying to keep my head above water. thats all.
thats one of my biggest fears; you know. going blind.
i mean... my books.. i have to be able to read my books. my books are my only refuge from my own life sometimes when things get bad... all my old friends are in my books and they never die (or you can skip the parts where they do; or, if youre feeling weepy, read them anyway)...
im scared of being blind. my vision is poor anyway, and its getting worse every year. its something thats always frightened me. i had to wear glasses when i was like 6 years old.
sometimes i think little things are fascinating. i stare at those little cone shaped shells on beaches and think about the lives of the creatures who made them. how can you make something so intricate and beautiful with no real thought? or a better example; orchids. orchids serve no purpose that i know of. they are immensely hard to cultivate and take care of; they need the exact amount of heat and light and water and so forth to live, and they dont even smell pretty. they just LOOK pretty. so delicate. how can something be so delicate and perfectly formed with no predetermined design?
im trying to keep my head above water. i created a website last night; i dont really know why, i was bored and i felt like doing something. its www.zombettesuicide.com
im not sure if its up for the public yet. its supposed to be. i hope i can make little changes and additions in the future if the spirit moves me because i dont approve of the pink background. but i never was good with computers and im personally a little impressed that i got it working at all.
just viewed joleighs giggles set for the first time. and the second. i viewed it back to back. that girl smiles and she looks just like milla jovovich, whom i have had a crush on and wanted to be ever since seeing the fifth element.
thats one of my problems. i want to BE other people. i dont particularly want to be MYSELF usually.
i know what thats called. thats called being in your twenties and having no real solid purpose in your life. its all very confusing.
just trying to keep my head above water. thats all.
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And I loved your set too. I 'd been waiting for a while for it to go up (though the wait must've been way worse for you, haha!