zoelielynn

There's so much running through my head and its been such a struggle to make it through the day without having a complete breakdown. I didn't sleep last night and I literally just stared at my computer screen all day because I just couldn't function. In the past two years I've literally gone through hell and back between a terrifying medical diagnosis, extreme family issues, bankruptcy, legal shit and everything and anything else that could go wrong. I've been trying so hard to keep a strong face but I'm literally at the breaking point.

I finally started modeling because I thought it would truly make me happy, and sometimes it does. I've met and talked to some amazing people on SG and in the modeling world in general, but I still feel completely lost. I keep thinking there's a barrier between me and the world where I'm just not good enough to be accepted, and it's killing me that I can't figure out what the fuck it is and get around it.

I'm sorry for the emo ranting, but this seems to be the only place I can vent where people will understand me. I sincerely hope everyone that reads this is doing better than I am, and if you're not, I'm always here to talk. Hopefully I can sleep tonight :/