zmbiman

On Monday I set a new low in getting fucked up. So much booze, so much weed. I don't even like smoking weed. But, I just kept going. "Bowl?" Okay you talked me into it. Currently Jose Cuervo is keeping me company. I was so fucked up in fact that when I left I went and bought a pack of cigarettes. I smoked two on the way home. I barely made it home before all the chemicals fully processed in my body. I had to stop and pee on the side of the road. When I got home it was about four I think. I fell on my bed and promptly passed out for about four hours. I got up at about eight thirty. I just couldn't fall back asleep. I felt surprisingly awake and virile after such a night of debauchery. It didn't last for long. The rest of the day is a blur now. I decided to take a break for a few days. I was intoxicated for about two or three weeks straight. Break time is over. I am working on a pretty good buzz now. Sparks is a good drink. It has the tasty malt beverage part and it is also an energy drink. It helps me stay up and get fucked up at the same time. My mom thinks I am an asshole. She decided to have a temper tantrum and slam the door on me because I didnt feel like looking items on my step-dad's Christmas list. What a fucking baby. And she wonders why her children don't give a fuck. She asked me why I don't mentor my younger brother. I just told her it is not my responsibility. Why should I make up for her being a bad parent? This alcohol is feeling so good, it makes me glad I took a break. I keep thinking of the X. Everything reminds me of her. The littlest things trigger memories. This is getting ridiculous. I should be over her by now. It is supposed to be two weeks of mourning for every sixth months isn't it. Not lingering wanting and feelings of abandonment post month or so. I saw TV on the Radio yesterday. They were better than last time I saw them. Their next album is going to devastate the hearts of the yearning. It is too bad they had to open for The Faint. I couldn't even stay through The Faint's whole set. I felt like I had already seen what I had came for and they just didnt impress me. So many hot hipster chicks. Most of them were probably just scene bitches but damn they are fine. It is weird how I still feel out of place when I around hundreds of people with common interests. SHOT TIME! Mmmmm, tequila and sparks. Beep Beep was better than The Faint and they were an opening band. I might download some Beep Beep just to see how it compares to their live stuff. They had a lot of character. I ordered a new mixer and about seventy dollars worth of records. I can't wait til they arrive. I fucking heard Postal Service on 103.9 today at work. I was fucking blown away. A good song can make it on the radio. I just wish they would stop playing all that punk/pop shit. If they did that they could become a reputable radio station. Muse is coming up. I think I will request the day off. It will be worth it. Dec. 12. Z money told me AD was going to drive up for the show. I havent seen her in a while. I fucking missed Menomena in Tucson. It makes me sad. Thier album was so good. I really wanted to see them. The premise of their album process is so good. I should have thought of it sooner. I found a good website for underground hip-hop vinyl. I may be shopping there frequently. Can you feel the gone? Only when presented by Anti-Con. What is this! SHOT! YES, that is the stuff. Until next time when the lovelies present the beauty and the real evil shows it's bounty. I will be waiting for excess. I have mudslides waiting for me.