zimzum5

I've been feeling like shit lately...
I've always done almost everything for the others but not for me... Manage the family business is a great pleassure, I manage it since my mom's surgery, that is may. Since that moment, I've worked a lot, A LOT, I've got paid the hospital account, I've paid a rent, I've paid a lot of things and everything went ok but I'm close to loss everything again and to loss the manage. My brother whom I work with he received his title from the university this week and probably he left the family business, and probably my brother who managed it will be back and I guess they will let him in charge again

Besides, in the personal field, I feel so bad, I don't have any friend anymore, my closest friend they got married and they only have time for their family, that's the problem of being old. I'm close to the 30 and I'm still single, without girlfriend or any prospect to be my girl. Besides, sometimes I think I'm not good enough to make a girl happy, if I feel I wouldn't be a good boyfriend, I think I wouldn't be a good husband, I got that feeling since I was a child because my dad left my mom when I was four and all my uncles (my dad's brothers) did the same, and I don't wanna be like that because I lived hard times when I was a child and I don't wanna do that again to a son...

I don't know how this year ends, but what is true that with the end of this year and the beginning of 2013 will end a step in my life and another will begin. I'll be 30...

Have a good weekend