Feel a lot better today. A LOT. Stayed up too late last night watching preview vids for the third Devil May Cry videogame. Dante Sparda=TEH HOTNESS. Although I think, if given the choice, I'd rather BE him than DO him. Who WOULDN'T want to be that fuckin' cool?
Have also begun hotly anticipating the Final Fantasy VII- Advent Children movie. My god, CG has never...
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Have also begun hotly anticipating the Final Fantasy VII- Advent Children movie. My god, CG has never...
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I need to get the hell out of this rotten mood, because bad moods crush everything that I normally am. They destroy ambition and inspiration, they make it hard to laugh. They make it hard to feel ANYTHING, really, other than that low-level buzz of darkness in the back of your brain and the bottom of your heart.
It tastes too bitter. I don't like...
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It tastes too bitter. I don't like...
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bigblack81:
See, Writer, the reason why I've been trying so hard for you to notice that I really like you and WOULD want to be a part of your life more is that I DO think I'm enough to fit your standards. But I'm also willing to improve every day if I'm not. I'm trying to improve everyday regardless...you'd just be a bit of an encouragement.
Being aloof and icy isn't bad but being aloof and icy because you're afraid to step down a little is. I have stupidly high standards. Still do. But I've also learned that a person who fits my standards today may not tomorrow. People change. And for that reason alone, I go for what is there and what COULD be. You could be a social, out there girl AND still be an ice queen. You can do both.
You have the talent. It's why I'm so crushing on you. I wouldn't talk to you if I DIDN'T feel like you could. So nyah.
EDIT: Also, tell people who think you don't feel enough to be sad to get bent. Nabiki Tendo (from Ranma 1/2) and you are mad similar...and even she has emotions. Just remember: Ice walls are thick but they are not impenetrable.
[Edited on Dec 13, 2004 1:53PM]
Being aloof and icy isn't bad but being aloof and icy because you're afraid to step down a little is. I have stupidly high standards. Still do. But I've also learned that a person who fits my standards today may not tomorrow. People change. And for that reason alone, I go for what is there and what COULD be. You could be a social, out there girl AND still be an ice queen. You can do both.
You have the talent. It's why I'm so crushing on you. I wouldn't talk to you if I DIDN'T feel like you could. So nyah.
EDIT: Also, tell people who think you don't feel enough to be sad to get bent. Nabiki Tendo (from Ranma 1/2) and you are mad similar...and even she has emotions. Just remember: Ice walls are thick but they are not impenetrable.
[Edited on Dec 13, 2004 1:53PM]
Went to my cousin's wedding last night.
Hatred for humanity=RENEWED.
Am in a very bad mood today. Want to punch someone. In the FACE.
Whoever invented weddings should be SHOT. And whoever invented wedding DJs should be TORN APART BY WILD RABID HYENAS. I mean, who the fuck plays "the Macarena"? The fucking Macarena! And the dreaded Chicken Dance. I wanted to shoot myself.
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Hatred for humanity=RENEWED.
Am in a very bad mood today. Want to punch someone. In the FACE.
Whoever invented weddings should be SHOT. And whoever invented wedding DJs should be TORN APART BY WILD RABID HYENAS. I mean, who the fuck plays "the Macarena"? The fucking Macarena! And the dreaded Chicken Dance. I wanted to shoot myself.
Being...
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bigblack81:
I do hope you feel better. Please take care.
<-- kisses your cheek and rubs your shoulders
<-- kisses your cheek and rubs your shoulders
Jeez, I post adorablicious pics and get only ONE comment? You have cut me to the quick, all. I weep now, in my little dark corner. Weep, weep.
Yeah, anyway.
SURVEY TIME! Because I like to make you suffer.
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LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, aka Writer. My real name is currently of little consequence.
Birth date: April 1st. Shut up.
Birth place:...
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Yeah, anyway.
SURVEY TIME! Because I like to make you suffer.
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LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, aka Writer. My real name is currently of little consequence.
Birth date: April 1st. Shut up.
Birth place:...
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bigblack81:
Well...with the answers on this survey mayhaps you not ready for people to lust and drool over your adorabilicious pictures.
But I still will. Despite the isolationist survey making me all depressified. You're worth it,
*kisses your cheek and skips off, singing "X and Y" by Moving Units*
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But I still will. Despite the isolationist survey making me all depressified. You're worth it,
*kisses your cheek and skips off, singing "X and Y" by Moving Units*
[Edited on Dec 10, 2004 4:40PM]
bigblack81:
You know...this is fucking torture. Not only are you cute but you're posing in front of a big shelf of manga.
.............damn. I so wish I could clone you and run off to some small japanese prefecture. *sighs and smiles*
.............damn. I so wish I could clone you and run off to some small japanese prefecture. *sighs and smiles*
Dear gods, my brain-holder hurts. 
I'm supposed to go to my cousin's wedding on the 10th, but I have to work and haven't yet found any way to switch my hours. I don't honestly want to go-- I object to her marriage, since she's too damn young and I don't give it more than two years of lasting-power. She's at least two years younger than...
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I'm supposed to go to my cousin's wedding on the 10th, but I have to work and haven't yet found any way to switch my hours. I don't honestly want to go-- I object to her marriage, since she's too damn young and I don't give it more than two years of lasting-power. She's at least two years younger than...
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threejane:
Ha! Well get a juicer, it has been my favorite domestic purchase of the year. Actually, no, my bed was. But the juicer was my favorite appliance purchase. Erm... the juicer was my favorite non-sexual appliance purchase.
Anyway I use the thing several times a week, and the only real downside is the cost of fresh fruit and veggies.
Good luck getting to the wedding
Anyway I use the thing several times a week, and the only real downside is the cost of fresh fruit and veggies.
Good luck getting to the wedding
I'm exhausted. I wish I knew WHY.
Today some dimwitted woman wanted me to shuffle through all the quarters in the change drawer to find her a Florida one. Nevermind that it's a busy Saturday during the holiday season and there's a line halfway to the back of the store-- she wants her that SPECIAL quarter!
I hate people who think it's all about THEIR...
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Today some dimwitted woman wanted me to shuffle through all the quarters in the change drawer to find her a Florida one. Nevermind that it's a busy Saturday during the holiday season and there's a line halfway to the back of the store-- she wants her that SPECIAL quarter!
I hate people who think it's all about THEIR...
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pointblank:
LOL, bookstore people are the craziest.
Is milwaukee really that bad?
Is milwaukee really that bad?
bigblack81:
You didn't. And you weren't an asshole. I just didn't see the comment. I posted a new entry and went on with my business. I didn't even see it till this morning past.
You're reasons are sound, though I do wonder why you posted a dating profile. *shrugs* My offer stands though if you ever find yourself ready. Who knows? Tomorrow is much sooner then we think....
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You're reasons are sound, though I do wonder why you posted a dating profile. *shrugs* My offer stands though if you ever find yourself ready. Who knows? Tomorrow is much sooner then we think....
[Edited on Dec 05, 2004 7:13AM]
It's fuckin' cold in my apartment. See, I have this "energy saver" type thermostat, meaning that the heat can only be turned up AS HIGH AS 72. (It also goes down to 40, but who the hell would ever turn their heat down that low?) And I'm tiny, dammit, I don't produce much heat. This is why I've been wearing my hat. Not for fashion,...
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bigblack81:
This is why I have a room heater. I can bake myself to a nice crispy golden brown if I like.
Warmer places bring other issues, just to make a note.
Dreams that cannot be remembered suck, dreams that cannot be forgotten suck even worse.
Grown up life is less exciting but more fullfilling. In a sick, "I work therefore I can be bad" sort of way.
Hats are cute.
Warmer places bring other issues, just to make a note.
Dreams that cannot be remembered suck, dreams that cannot be forgotten suck even worse.
Grown up life is less exciting but more fullfilling. In a sick, "I work therefore I can be bad" sort of way.
Hats are cute.
bigblack81:
Sorry. Didn't see your note previous. Disregard my last contacts.
My mistake.
My mistake.
For 22 years of life I hardly ever had pictures taken of me. In fact, you could probably count on just your two hands how many pictures of me existed, even including all the holidays-with-family ones. As a kid, I can remember actively avoiding cameras, even going so far as to hide my face and cry if someone forced me to be in a picture....
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bigblack81:
I'm glad you're seeing yourself as cute. It's why I wanted to talk to you and take photos of you. Cuteness has no bounderies.
Love the new photos, BTW. My dare is still standing...
Love the new photos, BTW. My dare is still standing...
bigblack81:
Thanks for the comment.
My dare to you still stands, though. I now triple dog dare you to contact me on AIM. Triple dog dare! Hah!
Like I said, I'm talented. I just need to show it off more. And find girls worthy of my talents. You think you one?
My dare to you still stands, though. I now triple dog dare you to contact me on AIM. Triple dog dare! Hah!
Like I said, I'm talented. I just need to show it off more. And find girls worthy of my talents. You think you one?
Sometimes I draw pictures of myself, you know, because I CAN.
Once upon a time, though, I couldn't. I'd try, but they'd come out so totally wrong-- not just not looking at all like me, but quality-wise wrong. They'd be so horrifically sub par it wasn't even funny.
I used to have no self esteem. Maybe it's weird, but that automatically sabotaged any drawing I...
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Once upon a time, though, I couldn't. I'd try, but they'd come out so totally wrong-- not just not looking at all like me, but quality-wise wrong. They'd be so horrifically sub par it wasn't even funny.
I used to have no self esteem. Maybe it's weird, but that automatically sabotaged any drawing I...
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bigblack81:
Hun, you have issues. We all have issues. I was speaking in terms of what I look for in a girl. Look at my profile and dating profile again to get what I mean,
I mean, I'm so far from perfect. But I have things that women want. Perhaps I have something you want...
...like Pocky!
But I am serious: you fit a lot of the things I wish I could find in a girl. Whether you want to believe that or not is up to you...
<-- kisses your cheek and smiles sweetly at you.
I mean, I'm so far from perfect. But I have things that women want. Perhaps I have something you want...
...like Pocky!
But I am serious: you fit a lot of the things I wish I could find in a girl. Whether you want to believe that or not is up to you...
<-- kisses your cheek and smiles sweetly at you.
threejane:
Thanks for the nice words over in Lifestyle. Cheers!
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zilchtastic:
Whoa, cool! I love the colors.
bigblack81:
God I like this...
I'm coloring this in photoshop. I'll have something finished tonight.
If you have a screen name, I'd love to talk to you. Check my profile for some idea as to how to contact me.
I'm coloring this in photoshop. I'll have something finished tonight.
If you have a screen name, I'd love to talk to you. Check my profile for some idea as to how to contact me.
It's snowing. FUCK! I really, really hate the snow.
I hate it a lot more when I realize my sneakers are so worn they both have holes in the bottom. Of course, I don't realize this until I'm walking to the bus stop on the way home, and wondering why my feet are cold and wet after only going half a block.
I hate being...
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I hate it a lot more when I realize my sneakers are so worn they both have holes in the bottom. Of course, I don't realize this until I'm walking to the bus stop on the way home, and wondering why my feet are cold and wet after only going half a block.
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danhazelton:
i hear ya. i dont care for it much myself. im not ready for the snow yet. i need at least a few more weeks. months would be better. ohh well, lets get it over with
zilchtastic:
And all I can think is, "Gee, only four or five more months of this! Yay!"
I hate EVERYTHING right now.
Fucking. Snow.
I hate EVERYTHING right now.
Fucking. Snow.