O jesus... It is bad now. i don't know whats going on. everyday just gets worse and worse. i can't even stand to b in my own house anymore. my own house!! i feel trapped. i can't even look at my father now. he just disgusts me. me makes me sick to no end. my defenses are weakening. i feel myself falling apart with every...
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Today i reached my limit. I fear i am losing what strength i have left in me. For the past months i have remained a constant source of strength for my mother, keeping her safe and keeping her going. Now, i don't know if i can do it anymore. I need out of here soon. I can't stand the tension, the fighting, the hate anymore....
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txakurgorri:
Ziggs,
Thank you for your kind words.
The issue with your folks, specifically your dad, is tough. I would not begin to say that I understand your pain. I don't. No one does.
You have been strong for all this time. Even though it seems that your grip on reality is slowly slipping away, you'll overcome all fears and come out even stronger. I always bought into the saying: "What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger." It is the only way I have made it this last 6 years, after all the pain I have caused and gone through.
If you need anything, email me.
Thank you for your kind words.
The issue with your folks, specifically your dad, is tough. I would not begin to say that I understand your pain. I don't. No one does.
You have been strong for all this time. Even though it seems that your grip on reality is slowly slipping away, you'll overcome all fears and come out even stronger. I always bought into the saying: "What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger." It is the only way I have made it this last 6 years, after all the pain I have caused and gone through.
If you need anything, email me.
ccfoo:
Here, you need a dancing banana...
Well, i just got my copy of the SG book. It's really sweet. pictures upon pictures and even journal entries and blurbs written by some of the girls themselves. It is great. Go out and buy it...
Anyway, today, father's day, no real big thing around here. Hard to show appriciation for a man who is really screwing up his family and acting exactly the...
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Anyway, today, father's day, no real big thing around here. Hard to show appriciation for a man who is really screwing up his family and acting exactly the...
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ambie:
because that would only make sense!
ccfoo:
If I went they'd be like "Sir, you'll have to check that boner at the door..."
Well, the burlesque show last nite was unbelievable! First off, bloom. performed. They rocked. The lead singer was so energetic and carasmatic. The second band, Sluts of Truth, well, they sucked. First off, it was only two of them, so it was a White Stripes kind of deal. Second, the lead singer looked like Officer Dangle from Reno 911 in leather pants. They just sucked....
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captknutz:
Laready came through my area, unfortunately I missed it. 
captknutz:
Yeah I imagine it was pretty good, not as pissed about missing that as I am alkaline trio, They camw in december but I took the ex out on a date that night instead to try and get her back, man what the fuck was I thinking????
1 more day until the Burlesque show! I am soooooo excited! I love going into Philly. I am taking my best friend in the whole wide world, Kayt. Check her out in my pics folders. She's gorgious. I love her. Anyway, yea, today was busy as Pac Sun. We work hard for little to no recognision. We are corporate pawns whether we like to admit...
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ccfoo:
Yes, full report please.
And nobody influences society more than telephone sanitizers.
And nobody influences society more than telephone sanitizers.
ambie:
i wanna work as a manager 4 hours a week can i do that?
Another week has come and gone. In about an hour and 14 minutes, it'll be friday. I have to say that this week has been a very inspirational week. I have met new friends and they have given me strength and confidence in my upcoming choices. It's good to know that someone out there can relate to what's goin' on. A certain phrase comes to...
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ccfoo:
How's the new apartment?
ambie:
........ it is a bad week.....
Man, just when u think the world is doin' ok, the bottom drops out. Things are getting kind of ugly around here. The tension is building and i don't know how much more of this my mom and i can take. We've got to get out and we've got to do it soon. It is getting scary in some sense. He's actually really freaking me...
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ccfoo:
Do you guys have any other family members near by? Do you have any friend's places you two can stay at if things get too ugly? Some place he doesn't know about. I had to stay away from somebody for a couple of weeks one time. It sucked. I hope you two stay safe.
ccfoo:
Cool to hear you guys are moving!
I just got home from the greatest nite ever. I spent it with my girlfriend curled up on her sofa watching "A Knights Tale". Man, that was the greatest. It's times like those that u just forget everything that is going wrong in the world. For that amount of time, you're free. It's such a great feeling
ccfoo:
Nothin' like curling up with your woman and watching a naked Chaucer forge documents! Damn funny movie...glad you had a good time...
Another week is coming to a close and yet it just feels like life is just dragging on. I have gotten to see my girlfriend a lot lately, thank god. Man, u never really know how much u love some one until they're not around...
God, this week... Sucked! All I do is work, work, work, and barely get any time for myself or my friends. Jesus. I mean, I miss my girlfriend, the boys and I haven't skated in so long, and I am walking around half dead due to exhausion. Well, at least the boys and i get to meed up at Denny's tonite for a bit of...
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The best I can come up with is ignore him. Spend as much time away from home. Take your mom out. Be a team as much as possible. Trust in yourself.
Remember that you're not alone. And while it may be cliche, trust me, it helps. A lot.