Friday Jul 16, 2004

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i am frucking drunk. i am -partying with jake, eric, frencie, and tyler. i am so fucking drunk right now. o my god. this the the drunkest 've ever been. this is great. peace out to alll my friends....
ccfoo:
puke it will make you feel better...

Friday Jul 16, 2004

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as some of u know, yesterday was my b-day. it was great. unfortunately, i had to work but that wasn't too bad (at least when our district manager left). so anyway, we my mom and her boyfriend and i all went out to dinner with my girlfriend and her folks. We went to a really nice mexican resturant. They have the best taco salads.

afterwards,...
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txakurgorri:
Belated Birthday, Ziggs!

Good to see good stuff happen to good people.

smile
ccfoo:
Awesome times! I'd love some Mexican right now, but the way this antibiotic has my intestines churning, I think that would be a baaad idea.

Sunday Jul 11, 2004

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nothing new and terribly exciting to write about this time. same shit different day.

b-day is on thursday (i am counting down). i love b-days. presents galore. u know?

Plus, i just found out my best friend kayt is having a baby. wow, kinda wierd to think of her as a mom, but i think she'll do a great job. she is a loving, caring...
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ambie:
Happy Birthday Buddy!
ccfoo:
Happy Birthday!!!

Wednesday Jul 07, 2004

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Moonlight Insomnia

Red digits on the table
a hopeless reminder of another night lost.
moon light stripes the walls of this urban prison,
leaves rattle against the glass outside
the world begging to be let it
a chill to match my restlessness.
Pulling back the sheets
i look outside my window.
moonlight dances in the shadows of the street.
on the corner,
a small orange...
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ccfoo:
BTW, nice words...
bakurebob:
wow.. 19.. that was like 15 years ago.. holy shit I'm old(er)..

ARRR!!!

Monday Jul 05, 2004

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well, tomorrow it will b a week in the new apartment. god, it already feels like home for the most part. i finally got my room painted. i'll put pics up when i get furnature in it and finish the mural on the closet doors. the rook is fucking purple! how hot is that? i know i know, i've been watching too many episodes of...
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ccfoo:
All right Dorothy! There's no place like home!

I want an xbox. But I would only play ralley and snowboard games...
txakurgorri:
Great to hear ya doing well. Moving in to a new place can be such a fun time. smile

Walmart open 24hrs? Here in NoVa? Ha. I live near two of them and neither are open past 11pm. I mean, if I want Lucky Charms or new pants at 3am where else can I turn? wink

The Xbox's call can be quite strong, as I well know....

[Edited on Jul 05, 2004 7:54PM]

Thursday Jul 01, 2004

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well, mom and i moved out tuesday morning at 4am. This is the first time i've been online since monday nite. We just got cable internet installed this afternoon. We had just had enough. we were planning on moving on the 11th, but we just couldn't wait anymore.

I went back yesterday and he set the alarm system so we couldn't get in the house...
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ccfoo:
I'm glad to hear you are away from him! That's fucked up about the cars, but then you've said things were bad.

captknutz:
good to htear things are starting to look up, or at least sorta up. As for my life all the craziness seems to be coming to a climax with absolutely no end in sight. Not sure whats going to happen an hour from now let alone tommorw or the next day. skull

Monday Jun 28, 2004

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O jesus... It is bad now. i don't know whats going on. everyday just gets worse and worse. i can't even stand to b in my own house anymore. my own house!! i feel trapped. i can't even look at my father now. he just disgusts me. me makes me sick to no end. my defenses are weakening. i feel myself falling apart with every...
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ccfoo:
How much longer until you two move? If you have a credit card, can you find a cheap hotel to stay at until the move?
txakurgorri:
I wish I could help provide some answers or explanations...

The best I can come up with is ignore him. Spend as much time away from home. Take your mom out. Be a team as much as possible. Trust in yourself.

Remember that you're not alone. And while it may be cliche, trust me, it helps. A lot.

Wednesday Jun 23, 2004

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Today i reached my limit. I fear i am losing what strength i have left in me. For the past months i have remained a constant source of strength for my mother, keeping her safe and keeping her going. Now, i don't know if i can do it anymore. I need out of here soon. I can't stand the tension, the fighting, the hate anymore....
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txakurgorri:
Ziggs,

Thank you for your kind words.

The issue with your folks, specifically your dad, is tough. I would not begin to say that I understand your pain. I don't. No one does.

You have been strong for all this time. Even though it seems that your grip on reality is slowly slipping away, you'll overcome all fears and come out even stronger. I always bought into the saying: "What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger." It is the only way I have made it this last 6 years, after all the pain I have caused and gone through.

If you need anything, email me.
ccfoo:
Here, you need a dancing banana...

Sunday Jun 20, 2004

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Well, i just got my copy of the SG book. It's really sweet. pictures upon pictures and even journal entries and blurbs written by some of the girls themselves. It is great. Go out and buy it...

Anyway, today, father's day, no real big thing around here. Hard to show appriciation for a man who is really screwing up his family and acting exactly the...
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ambie:
because that would only make sense!
ccfoo:
If I went they'd be like "Sir, you'll have to check that boner at the door..."

Saturday Jun 19, 2004

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Well, the burlesque show last nite was unbelievable! First off, bloom. performed. They rocked. The lead singer was so energetic and carasmatic. The second band, Sluts of Truth, well, they sucked. First off, it was only two of them, so it was a White Stripes kind of deal. Second, the lead singer looked like Officer Dangle from Reno 911 in leather pants. They just sucked....
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captknutz:
Laready came through my area, unfortunately I missed it. frown skull
captknutz:
Yeah I imagine it was pretty good, not as pissed about missing that as I am alkaline trio, They camw in december but I took the ex out on a date that night instead to try and get her back, man what the fuck was I thinking???? skull

Wednesday Jun 16, 2004

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1 more day until the Burlesque show! I am soooooo excited! I love going into Philly. I am taking my best friend in the whole wide world, Kayt. Check her out in my pics folders. She's gorgious. I love her. Anyway, yea, today was busy as Pac Sun. We work hard for little to no recognision. We are corporate pawns whether we like to admit...
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ccfoo:
Yes, full report please.

And nobody influences society more than telephone sanitizers. tongue
ambie:
i wanna work as a manager 4 hours a week can i do that?

Thursday Jun 10, 2004

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Another week has come and gone. In about an hour and 14 minutes, it'll be friday. I have to say that this week has been a very inspirational week. I have met new friends and they have given me strength and confidence in my upcoming choices. It's good to know that someone out there can relate to what's goin' on. A certain phrase comes to...
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ccfoo:
How's the new apartment?
ambie:
........ it is a bad week.....
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