Holy shit am I in a bad mood. And it's all the more infuriating that I have no idea why! I have this sneaking suspicion that Im getting progressively more manic-depressive as I get older. My fear of this isnt helped by the fact that my father is manic-depressive. My mood swings are getting more extreme and more frequent. I suppose it cant help that I quit smoking two weeks ago, quit drugs a few months ago and have upped my caffeine intake by an order of magnitude. I also managed to scare myself today because I was in such a bad mood I couldnt really work (my work happens to require significant mental focus). What if this turns into a regular thing? Wasnt my life supposed to become perfect immediately upon graduation? What do you mean Ive been deluding myself for the last seven years? Now that I dont have any excuses for not dealing with my emotional/psychological problems, they seem to be coming back in force. Argh! I need someone to save me from myself!
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And a wonderful person who should go and talk to a medical professional (because we love and trust them SO much... ahem) about what's going on. I'll go with you if you want. I'll help you find someone who isn't a quack and who won't necessarily slap you on some drug without further investigation.
I love you, bootiful butterfly. Call me once you get a new phone, or stop by. Or run upstairs and call me from there AND stop by.
XOX-L
Why do they keep getting older?? Doesn't this mean they will have more baggage?
This is so a sign. I'm DONE.
XOX-L
PPS- Forty.