I hate being so overly emotional all the time, but I looked back over my SuicideGirls blog and read a lot of the comments and things from the years and bawled my eyes out and thought of so many beautiful people I've never met that I probably won't ever get to meet and just how awful that feels sometimes.
I wish I could send you all Christmas cards and thank you all for being friends, especially because I feel like I wasn't a good friend so often. This blog post will have to suffice for now :)
The people we surround ourselves with are so influential, but so are things like pop culture and just communities we belong to. It's not a lie that SG has been there in my life for a long time. I'm embarassed by a lot of things in this journal, some of it hurts and makes me cringe. I guess that's just how life is.
So since I really am tired of sitting around crying and really do prefer laughing then I'm going to play Skyrim, I haven't enjoyed a game like this in forever. Probably not since I started playing World of Warcraft, but Skyrim is single player and so it changes things. The story I'm working on right now is sort of interesting. I tried streaming on Mixer but I also like the idea of getting lost in wilderness by myself too.
Movies I really want to watch right now are:
Into The Wild
Requiem For A Dream (this is so sad but yeah)
Romeo + Juliet (this is vhs)
I am so excited for CATS! in December. I know the trailers sent the internet rabid on furries but I've seen the live play at least twice in my life as a child. It's a really good one. I've listened to the soundtrack on repeat for at least a few days since the trailer came out. People are going to love it, I know it's going to be magical. I just imagine like all the people involved in making it are rushing around behind the curtain whispering and having frenzy excitement right now.
I hope everyone is having a beautiful autumn, or winter, or summer. Climate is weird.
