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Dik is getting the divorce! I'm so excited! He's finally starting to understand my reason for leaving! We talked on the phone the other night and he told me he was getting the divorce at long last and said that after the divorce we can put money towards getting me into college. He's been working on building his portfolio and everything, pretty good start for a weeks worth of separation. I got another job and got approved for Day Care for Jade, so now she gets to romp around with other toddlers which is good for her to get some social interaction with other kids. Dik really misses us and wants us to come back home. I explained that in order for the separation to be truely beneficial we need to stick with the one month thing. To be honest I would love to go back home to him. I miss sex already and I'm genuinely not to fond of "pleasing myself" so to go home to get some action would be nice. His kids are super upset about me taking their "baby sister" away and appearently have been giving Dik the cold shoulder. Raven, his oldest told him she hated him for making me go away and take her favorite baby sister away. I feel bad for aing to "punish" them along with Dik, but I am glad he's growing and realzing what he really wants out of our relationship. He must really love me after all since he's taking all the right steps to get me back. I want to go back so bad! I miss the kids, I miss him, and I miss all my stuff. I left everything accept my clothes and make up and I took Jades clothes and favorite toys. She asks about Dik and that hurts me. She says, "Da-Da, Bye-bye?" and when ever someone pulls up in my mom's drive ways she runs to the window and says, "Da-Da back?!" I think we might come back to our real home with Dik a week early. Well, that's all for now. I still haven't done another shoot, it's so damn cold here now I don't want to do anythig but hibernate in the months to come. From Oct through March I want to curl up in a tight ball and wait for the snow and cold to go away.