zeozaki

thanks for your kind words...they help

Tenshi, it may not be the end of the world, but this is FUCKING hell. Every moment of the day it's hard. Everytime something great comes along i just want to tell you.

Your friendship is something so valuable to me. Me not being able to talk to you. IT hurts so bad. I am so tired of going to sleep because i miss you, it hurts so bad. I have no one to speak to now.

you are an angel i need you to look out for me.

i can't do it. I need your friendship. without it i will die inside i am so tired of the tears. The just don't stop. I am being so honest.

I miss you so much. Please don't swear me off like this. It hurts too much.

I continue to smile i continue to work on nice projects and i am only able to do it because it shows i can continue my job and at your request stay away from you.

But tenshi i could do so much more here if i knew thing you knew. There are questions i have had, we recently got a new manager and she talked about how advancement worked I have so many questions.

I continue to work on my stats everything in life i try to work at it so much harder. Tenshi i miss you so fregging much.

It's not the end world yes, but this is hell. I'd rather sleep in the roughest part of town or the world then to sleep in my bed.

I miss your smile I miss your voice. I miss you so much. I Miss you please I so miss you. Your friendship.

It hurts to no end.

I hope you know this.
Please PLease. Set me free. let me be yout friend the devils and the demons i fight at night they are so hard to overcome.
they continue to plaque me hour after hour.

Please help me. I am sorry that because you are reading this that i am not sounding like a man, and more like a child, but please not the fact that i have the restraint not to get on my knees and beg you for your friendship is proof enough i am a man. I am a man because i continue to respect your request despite how i feel. And i continue to fight these demons ever night. Your friendship is invaluable.

Know that.