zenobia

and the night starts to get interesting. unexpected phone call from the closest thing i have to an ex. wants to meet up after i get off in about 20 mins. i already know this is going to be very unpleasant. time to put the gameface on and be as numb and unaffected as i possibly can. i hate reopening old wounds but this is something that has needed to be reopened for awhile. it's going to be a long night but i'll think postive like my friend lydia said and maybe it won't be so bad. but i have a feeling it's going to be another round of the blame game



screaming in the middle of the road, broken glass, fist through window, almost gettting slammed in the face with some type of stone object(large rock maybe a brick hard to tell when your trying to run and dodge at the same time), and now E sits in the ER waiting for his hand/arm to be stitched up while I try relax enough to sleep. all I want is for us to be able to communicate in a effective manner but when you can't be in someones presence without attacking and being defensive effective communication is just not going to happen. now i guess i'll keep doing what i was doing avoid and ignore.