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Well my birthday is coming up this Friday, but I'm unsure what to think about that. I'm a little closer to what I want than I was this time last year but I'm still not there yet. My birthdays are always a little wierd for me. I've forgotten three of them two when I was in the service and one after. I don't celebrate them very well and don't make a big deal about them. Last year my friends forgot it until my brother reminded them a week later. I can't blame them I didn't remind anyone and it's not like I can remember theirs unless they remind me. The day seems to have lost it's meaning in the past years. You're supposed to be celebrating your life but to me mine is nothing to celebrate, at least not yet. Maybe later in life I'll be more into it as long as I have given something to this world and the people in it something worthy of the both of them.