Ever get to that point in your life where you're utterly and totally content -- but you're still missing that certain 'something'?
I'm there now.
I love my job, I love the friends that I have, I love my cat, I love the beer that I'm drinking as we speak [granted, that may well be why I keep saying 'love'] but I realized that I have been single for over 2 1/2 years now.
Now, this isn't for lack of female interests, I've met quite a few, but I always kept comparing them to my ex -- who was the bonafide love of my life, as she embodied everything I knew I needed in a person.
Well, I came to the decision a few nights back that I'm ready for a relationship again.
What is it in us that makes us feel less than complete when we lack a signifcant other?
I'm not a weak person with co-dependancy issues, quite the opposite, yet I still feel incomplete without having a romantic interest.
I think it's some type of cosmic joke. Basically stated, I've spent over two years alone, am in an emotional nirvana, yet my heart keeps calling out to find 'the one' -- which will, on good chance, cause me to lose the 'emotional nirvana' and cast me back into the emotional maelstrom that is a relationship.
'Nothing lost, nothing gained"?
Maybe.
"Don't bring your guns to town, son, leave your guns at home."
Much better.
Screw it, beer shall be my guide. Come hither, gentle fermented hopps and yeast, talk to me as if a lover.
-Scotty
PS Day four of 'Baily Week' continues. PB&J's with the crust cut off. And PBR's. Life MIGHT get better then this [like, let's say, if Miss B showed up on my doorstep] but I'm not complaining ...
I'm there now.
I love my job, I love the friends that I have, I love my cat, I love the beer that I'm drinking as we speak [granted, that may well be why I keep saying 'love'] but I realized that I have been single for over 2 1/2 years now.
Now, this isn't for lack of female interests, I've met quite a few, but I always kept comparing them to my ex -- who was the bonafide love of my life, as she embodied everything I knew I needed in a person.
Well, I came to the decision a few nights back that I'm ready for a relationship again.
What is it in us that makes us feel less than complete when we lack a signifcant other?
I'm not a weak person with co-dependancy issues, quite the opposite, yet I still feel incomplete without having a romantic interest.
I think it's some type of cosmic joke. Basically stated, I've spent over two years alone, am in an emotional nirvana, yet my heart keeps calling out to find 'the one' -- which will, on good chance, cause me to lose the 'emotional nirvana' and cast me back into the emotional maelstrom that is a relationship.
'Nothing lost, nothing gained"?
Maybe.
"Don't bring your guns to town, son, leave your guns at home."
Much better.
Screw it, beer shall be my guide. Come hither, gentle fermented hopps and yeast, talk to me as if a lover.
-Scotty
PS Day four of 'Baily Week' continues. PB&J's with the crust cut off. And PBR's. Life MIGHT get better then this [like, let's say, if Miss B showed up on my doorstep] but I'm not complaining ...
the similarities between us are startling...
i've been pretty much out of the committed relationship scene for over a year and recently found myself actually wanting one. and no, its not the co-dependance in me. its moreso that i KNOW myself a lot more and feel i could hold my own in a relationship and not compromise so much.
good luck in your search. i hope it leads you to boston...(a girl can wish, cant she?)
-B