I have realized over the years that I have been hurt by people. People that I loved; that I trusted. People I thought were my friends.
I have also realized that I too have hurt the people I love. I can't take back the pain I caused. I can apologize and try to help heal their wounds. Sometimes that means just staying away.
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I have also realized that I too have hurt the people I love. I can't take back the pain I caused. I can apologize and try to help heal their wounds. Sometimes that means just staying away.
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A Facebook friend is undergoing surgery tomorrow (Friday) to have some tumors removed. I have never met her in person but she still a dear friend.Her name is Anna. So, if you think about it, send some prayers or positive energy her way. Her surgery is scheduled for around 1:00 p.m Eastern time, 12:00 Central time. Any kind of surgery is scary. I'll let you...
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So... People on Facebook (who are supposed to be my friends) are telling me I need to "get over it" with my ex. Really? It's only been three months since she left. Three fucking months and you're telling me I need to get over it??? Have you ever been in a divorce? If you had then you wouldn't say things like that. I will "get...
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w00dy:
I feel your pain, man. Mine left after 13 years. Even though I've come to realize her leaving was probably the best for me, her, and the kids, it still sucks. I've grown to hate the bitch in the last few months but I agree with the lack of closure. There is that little voice in my head telljng me "I could have done better or what if I..." You'll get over it when you're ready and no one has the right to tell you otherwise. Be strong.
zen_ken:
Thanks brother. It would be a hell of a lot easier if I could hate her. But I can't. I have a very large support group on Facebook and they are helping me cope. I don't think there is anything I could have done. Once she made up her mind that is all she wanted.
Always glad to hear from someone who has been through this. I appreciate you sharing.
Thanks again.
Always glad to hear from someone who has been through this. I appreciate you sharing.
Thanks again.
I don't understand how anyone can click "Not for Me" on any of the Suicide Girl pics. I don't get it. Are you crazy?? Here's an idea. If you don't like a particular set of pics (and what the fuck is wrong with you??) then just don't vote!! Keep your damn vote to yourself.
Go back to looking at all the phoney Photoshopped models who...
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Taking a mental health day today. Because I just don't feel like going to work. I think I need to revisit the tattoo parlor. There are a couple of places that need to be redone. Just touched up a little. On the other hand, do I want to go through with it. Again? There was no pain. Oh well.
thanatoz:
yeah!!! one day to do wheteer you want, fuck the sistem jajajaj
thanks for the add my love
thanks for the add my love
zen_ken:
Yeah, that's me. Thanks for responding. Love you girl!
Woke up feeling pretty down this morning. Don't know why either. Could be I thought it was Saturday and realized it was Monday.
I need to stop dwelling on my past marriage. I need to quit asking myself what happened, why it happened, could I have stopped it from happening... Why she fucking threw 8 years away. Just like that.
I know I'm not perfect....
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I need to stop dwelling on my past marriage. I need to quit asking myself what happened, why it happened, could I have stopped it from happening... Why she fucking threw 8 years away. Just like that.
I know I'm not perfect....
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October 12. Today is my birthday. 59 years young! I'm going to a sports bar to hear my niece and her band, Tiger Lilly, play. She is a rocker. Should be fun.
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bleuet:
Happy be-lated Bday!!!!
zen_ken:
Thank you so much Bleuet! 
So, I'm reading this book called "The Government Vs. Erotica: The Siege of Adam & Eve."
Here is a summation of what it is about: "In 1986, a small mail-order company was invaded by 37 armed law enforcement agents who instantly shut down all operations, herded the employees into a warehouse, and then systematically interrogated everyone, allowing them to leave only after subpoenas were distributed....
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Here is a summation of what it is about: "In 1986, a small mail-order company was invaded by 37 armed law enforcement agents who instantly shut down all operations, herded the employees into a warehouse, and then systematically interrogated everyone, allowing them to leave only after subpoenas were distributed....
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Well, I had a thought. And then I lost it...
Okay, my post for the day. I'm still a little freaked out I got a tattoo. My first. I don't know if I will get another. Maybe. But for now I'm just trying to get use to this one.
Okay, my post for the day. I'm still a little freaked out I got a tattoo. My first. I don't know if I will get another. Maybe. But for now I'm just trying to get use to this one.
kay:
I think it is brilliant that you did. I took both my parents to get cut. ha ha.
zen_ken:
I'm glad I got one too. I needed a marker for the end of my relationship with Pam and a new beginning. And I feel like I have joined this special club. You can't explain how it feels to people who have never had one. You have to experience it.
Well, here it is, Tuesday night. My day job (the one that pays the bills) is me being a librarian. Yep. January will be my 15th year at the same job.
Trust me when I say I am not your typical librarian. Hell, I have a ponytail and I wear off-the-wall jewelry including my SG necklace for all to see. If I could get away...
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Trust me when I say I am not your typical librarian. Hell, I have a ponytail and I wear off-the-wall jewelry including my SG necklace for all to see. If I could get away...
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kay:
Cool that you are a librarian!
zen_ken:
Yeah. I like it. My favorite pick up line, "Hey, I'd like to check you out." I never actually used it. How you doing?