zef

Life:

I've been talking to Ataxia quite a bit lately. She is a wonderful woman. Made life way more interesting. Looking forward to visiting with her. In fact, my "friendship" with a few of you has gotten stronger and more interesting, and with Drave continues to grow. I am quite lucky where SG friends are concerned. Thank you all.

Tomorrow morning, before sunrise I begin a nine hour drive back to Ohio not only for a week of vacation (what a crappy destination!!!) to a visit with family and friends, but to return my niece. It has been wonderful and disappointing. I thought I could be the catalyst to get her started toward a young adult life, but my life isn't really structured enough to be that person for her. I need more time to myself, to build and grow into the person I want to be instead of the person who dreams of being someone else. So, we'll always have the "summer I spent with my uncle Zef" memories. Ultimately, you can only help yourself.

my communication will be sporadic over the next week. I have internet access, but all to often my step-dad likes to stand over my shoulder. While some fathers and sons might be willing to share the SG experience, I've never really had that kind of relationship with my step-dad. My mom takes it as a personal afront if I spend more than five minutes on the internet. I'll have access in downtown Dayton as the city offers free wireless and at my friends houses. I look forward to numerous awesome conversations and get togethers with my Ohio friends, but in a way I've shifted perspective away from most of these friends. We'll always be close, but only with effort.

So when I come back to an empty apartment to face the ruines of my life, I'll revel in the posibilities then begin to construct a life worth living. A life a few of you might be interested in sharing with me, either here on SG, or in person as with Ataxia and Drave.

My car is fixed, btw. It only cost $410 to get my a/c compressor replaced. So while it took a chunk from my pocket, I know the universe has more where that came from. I think I know exactly how to begin filtering more prosperity, good will, excellent health, and abundance of love into my life.

much love to all of you.

ooxx-zef-xxoo