she disappeared
not the actual person
just who I thought
she could be
smokey clouds of possibilty
rolling and dispersing
creating a layer of upon which
ideas form
I've seen this before
only too quickly
I forget how
I ever saw anything at all
The bat of an eyelash
sends me into fits
trying to see myself
in her eyes
What she sees
is fully her own imaginings
too robust and colorful
to be tamed with my likeness
I disappeared
not the actual me
just who I thought
I could be
----
those days that end only because you gave up
they seem to come too often and without notice
but you are kidding yourself
if you think that you didn't know
that you only had so much fight in you
so much will to carry on
how far you raise the bar
isn't determined by the effort you think you can handle
but by the strength to go beyond all known limits
today I moved a pebble
I thought all I could do was brush sand from my eyes.
---
not the actual person
just who I thought
she could be
smokey clouds of possibilty
rolling and dispersing
creating a layer of upon which
ideas form
I've seen this before
only too quickly
I forget how
I ever saw anything at all
The bat of an eyelash
sends me into fits
trying to see myself
in her eyes
What she sees
is fully her own imaginings
too robust and colorful
to be tamed with my likeness
I disappeared
not the actual me
just who I thought
I could be
----
those days that end only because you gave up
they seem to come too often and without notice
but you are kidding yourself
if you think that you didn't know
that you only had so much fight in you
so much will to carry on
how far you raise the bar
isn't determined by the effort you think you can handle
but by the strength to go beyond all known limits
today I moved a pebble
I thought all I could do was brush sand from my eyes.
---
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as far as Mr. Editor goes, there's really no proof of anything because the actual "hitting-on" was over the phone. if that's what you can call it. was it a proposal? hard to say. if i'd told him i'd dump my fiance and run away with him, he might have done it. as it was, he asked if i'd go drinking with him right then and there... -cough, cough- NO!
blue and hazy when smoking alone indeed. especially when listening to the first Esthero cd or Kenna's song "HellBent."
exnay on the annerscay. too much else on the big list-o-stuff-i'd-rather-spend-money-on. besides, you get a good smattering of photos with my digicam. i need to drag that guy back out...
well, i'm glad your poems got you through the week, but i think it's time for a new post, eh? i'm sure you have more to share!
okay, no tsotsi though i'm sure it's worth whatever drive. Capote is out on dvd now, and that's definitely one of my recent favorites. i heart p.s. hoffman.
I know this is going to sound really stupid, but I've always thought of a girl getting it with a strap-on seems dangerous. How can she know exactly how hard and deep she is doing it. Certainly your reaction reflects that, but it seems like you could be really sore afterward. Have you have done a girl (hell why not, or a guy) with a strap-on? I know I am a dumb guy, but honestly that's what I think about when the concept of strap-on sex.
You are not dumb. I have only done it with girls... though I have brought it up a few times to my guy whom thinks that I am crazy but hell he does it to me with the real thing(when I let him), I am slowly but surely working on this guy.....
We got married today, of all days April fools day, lol.
Our relationship is fab, we to have our moments and don't always see eye to eye but we work it out and talk everything out before we do it or make a big decision.... It is important to communicate to one another, and I have so much to learn but I have learned so much already and we have each other to work these things out so I am very much happy in my relationship as one should be if they get married! har har har..... He is my is my one and only... never thought that would be, but eh... I didn't know what unconditional love was until I met him so....
I'm rambling.......
do you have a butt fetish?
[Edited on Apr 02, 2006 12:02AM]