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symocean> I swear that bitch waitress hated me--
messiah Fats > What did she do that clued you in?
symocean> Aside from dumping food all over me? I don't knowdid you see the way she looked at me when I changed my order? She probably went back in the kitchen to spit in my food!
leon_xlr > You did change your order three times!
tapeworm > yeah! Iread the other day two's the rule! after that's open season....
symocean> waitsince when do we live by rules?
leon_xlr> since the world went round motherfucka!
messiah_fats> sym-- don't you think you brought it on yourself?
symocean> What the fuck? Why are you picking on me again?
messiah_fats> uhI am notWhy can't I ask you a question without you assuming I am attacking you?
symocean> You guys are acting just like you did last night!
tapeworm> It was your fault, you called her a bitch.
symocean> she spilled water all over me! All I did was ask for a clean glass. Is a clean glass too much to ask for? That's bullshit.
tapeworm> yeah, but do you know she spilled the water on you on purpose? She seemed pretty embarrassed if you ask m...until you called her a bitch!
symocean> I don't knowif she didn't do it on purpose then she should have been paying better attention.
messiah Fats > -- said by the one with time collapsed attention spasms!
leon_xlr> all I know is I saw the light!
Tapeworm> "PRAISE JESUS!"
leon_xlr> right-on brother!
messiah_fats> Was it like pure bliss?
leon_xlr> what? (MF: I never know what the fuck you are talking about) It was just this.vision.I've been called upon.served the summons to bring it all down.
tapeworm> I was with you all nightwhen did this happen?
leon_xlr> Right when Symocean's plate of aloo choley hit the girl walking in through the main entrance Her jaws went tight, she was ready to tear-up the place.suddenly it was all about her.
tapeworm> That's exactly why they shouldn't have been fighting to begin witheveryone assumes it's all about them
leon_xlr> Exactly! Where's the love? Where's the acceptance and understanding?
messiah_fats>..its certainly wasn't in the knee to the groin Sym gave that buss boy who tried to break things up=)
symocean> He grabbed my boob!
messiah_fats> Serves him right
messiah_fats> But what makes you think she didn't like you from the moment you walked in the door?
symocean> I don't knowwe can't know everythingI am sure she had her reasons. She's still a stupid bitch!
messiah_fats> Yeah, well I am sure she'll never mess with you again. You took her down. Although I thought she had you there when she threw that glass of Massala in your eyes
symocean> It stungbut sometimes you just have to whoop ass
leon_xlr> Anywayall that lack of love, sucked me into this dj vu hole I once plunged intoviolent blur of angels throwing downwings being torn offused to beat the grounded angel to deathit was fucking nutsthen this beam of light struck down in their midst, sending em to opposites ends of heaven's gatesthen I fell into the lightcooked me aliveI thought I was gone for goodthen I was standing at this door. I knockedphewttttchillumination.beyond bright.white, but more blank.I heard a voiceI had a conversation withfuck if I know what to call itAnyway, it told me all kinds of shit about King I'bsaid he was this treacherous beast who had wicked intentions for the humanitytalked about him being a false prophetDOOM I couldnt figure out what my man was saying beyond thathe just kept talking told me to question everythingdon't accept anything as truthshit, I just don't know.
symocean> You're burnt.
leon_xlr> maybeI am doing what I can to improveelevate my image doing what I can to stomach communicating with people who only seem to care about stupid shitI mean they've got their pointsbut bitches and hos and drinking and the Bullsain't none of that mean jack shit to me
messiah_fats> Yeah, well what else did he say?
leon_xlr> he mentioned this cat Drovenbarmastermindagent of changeout of controlI don't knowI thought I was lose'n touch until I found the name in my AK Press catalog. He wrote these manifestossuggested he was probably insane. I ordered one of his booksthe proper use of manipulation devices.there's no date on the publicationit's freakn rad.
messiah_fats> cool shit.
tapeworm> huh, what's it say about sucka's?
leon_xlr> it says to kill 'em all, sucka! It's all about taking responsibility for shit and not blaming everyone elsetalked about how people make their own poison. They sicken themselves with their own fears. Self fulfilling prophecies and shit.
messiah_fats> waitI am about to go off
tapeworm> here we go
leon_xlr> how many city blocks should we evacuate?
symocean> He's Messiah Fats! Jesus was so thin he could only die for our sins. Certainly he'll be able to sacrifice himself for something much bigger.
tapeworm> like the 80's? or capitalism?
leon_xlr> Yo, Yo, I think those are supposed to be covered under the Jesus plan.
symocean>only with a rent to own option.
messiah_fats> Like just about every person of judeo-christian faith in the worldwe're living their closed-world-view-perspective. It's inertia. Our whole schema of language is wrapped around the perspective of a Christian-based value system. There may have been some real value in it when jesus , muhammad and moses were laying it on the land but up through the ages, it's been corrupted so much by fractaline-ignorance that nearly anyone with any real faith, has it in themselves. Which is what I think Jesus was talking about anyway. They seen to believe in an idea they cannot explain yet think they can. I truly experience it. Everyone else has their sheep skin faces onembracing the very system that enslaves them to their own fatalistic hell. But what's so totally fucked about it is, they believe what they are doing is in the name of God, and as such they believe it is the only right thing for them to do, for anyone to do.
symocean> What do you believe in? So many of them don't even have a clue. Government has replaced religion with capitalism. Or they've taxed Capitalism into Christianity. They've even turned Buddhism into market shareas usual everyone tries to make a fortune on prophecies and final-solutions.
tapeworm> that's because it's all just a bunch of shit. Tell me what God is? Shit. I am not going to find God in a book. If I am gonna find anything to believe in, I'll find it out in the streets living itfind my way through the darknessnot sitting in some big, crowded ass church, with a bunch of people who would rather be at home watching sports or wishing they were choir girls' silk undergarments. Nobody really gives a fuck about anybody. They pretend to care, even convince themselves that they are defining love, setting standards for adoption as international law. What they call love is actually fear and ignorance wearing name brand shoes. It's all jealousy about who's got more than I do. It's all just shit.. We're screwed because nobody wants to accept that we are the albatross
messiah_fats> raze the oppressive mentality! Karma has done its calculations, gravitational analysis says, bring it all down!.
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Despite Messiah Fats assertion that if they "should have gotten a booth like sym had wanted," ( which undercuts the moment with a sense of guilt that one could only comprehend from riding wide in his grossly obese body) that the incident would have never happened, it was in that battered moment, Indian food marking the walls in an abstract painting of the growing tumultuous affair, that Leon realized the need for a plan to save the world.
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symocean> I swear that bitch waitress hated me--
messiah Fats > What did she do that clued you in?
symocean> Aside from dumping food all over me? I don't knowdid you see the way she looked at me when I changed my order? She probably went back in the kitchen to spit in my food!
leon_xlr > You did change your order three times!
tapeworm > yeah! Iread the other day two's the rule! after that's open season....
symocean> waitsince when do we live by rules?
leon_xlr> since the world went round motherfucka!
messiah_fats> sym-- don't you think you brought it on yourself?
symocean> What the fuck? Why are you picking on me again?
messiah_fats> uhI am notWhy can't I ask you a question without you assuming I am attacking you?
symocean> You guys are acting just like you did last night!
tapeworm> It was your fault, you called her a bitch.
symocean> she spilled water all over me! All I did was ask for a clean glass. Is a clean glass too much to ask for? That's bullshit.
tapeworm> yeah, but do you know she spilled the water on you on purpose? She seemed pretty embarrassed if you ask m...until you called her a bitch!
symocean> I don't knowif she didn't do it on purpose then she should have been paying better attention.
messiah Fats > -- said by the one with time collapsed attention spasms!
leon_xlr> all I know is I saw the light!
Tapeworm> "PRAISE JESUS!"
leon_xlr> right-on brother!
messiah_fats> Was it like pure bliss?
leon_xlr> what? (MF: I never know what the fuck you are talking about) It was just this.vision.I've been called upon.served the summons to bring it all down.
tapeworm> I was with you all nightwhen did this happen?
leon_xlr> Right when Symocean's plate of aloo choley hit the girl walking in through the main entrance Her jaws went tight, she was ready to tear-up the place.suddenly it was all about her.
tapeworm> That's exactly why they shouldn't have been fighting to begin witheveryone assumes it's all about them
leon_xlr> Exactly! Where's the love? Where's the acceptance and understanding?
messiah_fats>..its certainly wasn't in the knee to the groin Sym gave that buss boy who tried to break things up=)
symocean> He grabbed my boob!
messiah_fats> Serves him right
messiah_fats> But what makes you think she didn't like you from the moment you walked in the door?
symocean> I don't knowwe can't know everythingI am sure she had her reasons. She's still a stupid bitch!
messiah_fats> Yeah, well I am sure she'll never mess with you again. You took her down. Although I thought she had you there when she threw that glass of Massala in your eyes
symocean> It stungbut sometimes you just have to whoop ass
leon_xlr> Anywayall that lack of love, sucked me into this dj vu hole I once plunged intoviolent blur of angels throwing downwings being torn offused to beat the grounded angel to deathit was fucking nutsthen this beam of light struck down in their midst, sending em to opposites ends of heaven's gatesthen I fell into the lightcooked me aliveI thought I was gone for goodthen I was standing at this door. I knockedphewttttchillumination.beyond bright.white, but more blank.I heard a voiceI had a conversation withfuck if I know what to call itAnyway, it told me all kinds of shit about King I'bsaid he was this treacherous beast who had wicked intentions for the humanitytalked about him being a false prophetDOOM I couldnt figure out what my man was saying beyond thathe just kept talking told me to question everythingdon't accept anything as truthshit, I just don't know.
symocean> You're burnt.
leon_xlr> maybeI am doing what I can to improveelevate my image doing what I can to stomach communicating with people who only seem to care about stupid shitI mean they've got their pointsbut bitches and hos and drinking and the Bullsain't none of that mean jack shit to me
messiah_fats> Yeah, well what else did he say?
leon_xlr> he mentioned this cat Drovenbarmastermindagent of changeout of controlI don't knowI thought I was lose'n touch until I found the name in my AK Press catalog. He wrote these manifestossuggested he was probably insane. I ordered one of his booksthe proper use of manipulation devices.there's no date on the publicationit's freakn rad.
messiah_fats> cool shit.
tapeworm> huh, what's it say about sucka's?
leon_xlr> it says to kill 'em all, sucka! It's all about taking responsibility for shit and not blaming everyone elsetalked about how people make their own poison. They sicken themselves with their own fears. Self fulfilling prophecies and shit.
messiah_fats> waitI am about to go off
tapeworm> here we go
leon_xlr> how many city blocks should we evacuate?
symocean> He's Messiah Fats! Jesus was so thin he could only die for our sins. Certainly he'll be able to sacrifice himself for something much bigger.
tapeworm> like the 80's? or capitalism?
leon_xlr> Yo, Yo, I think those are supposed to be covered under the Jesus plan.
symocean>only with a rent to own option.
messiah_fats> Like just about every person of judeo-christian faith in the worldwe're living their closed-world-view-perspective. It's inertia. Our whole schema of language is wrapped around the perspective of a Christian-based value system. There may have been some real value in it when jesus , muhammad and moses were laying it on the land but up through the ages, it's been corrupted so much by fractaline-ignorance that nearly anyone with any real faith, has it in themselves. Which is what I think Jesus was talking about anyway. They seen to believe in an idea they cannot explain yet think they can. I truly experience it. Everyone else has their sheep skin faces onembracing the very system that enslaves them to their own fatalistic hell. But what's so totally fucked about it is, they believe what they are doing is in the name of God, and as such they believe it is the only right thing for them to do, for anyone to do.
symocean> What do you believe in? So many of them don't even have a clue. Government has replaced religion with capitalism. Or they've taxed Capitalism into Christianity. They've even turned Buddhism into market shareas usual everyone tries to make a fortune on prophecies and final-solutions.
tapeworm> that's because it's all just a bunch of shit. Tell me what God is? Shit. I am not going to find God in a book. If I am gonna find anything to believe in, I'll find it out in the streets living itfind my way through the darknessnot sitting in some big, crowded ass church, with a bunch of people who would rather be at home watching sports or wishing they were choir girls' silk undergarments. Nobody really gives a fuck about anybody. They pretend to care, even convince themselves that they are defining love, setting standards for adoption as international law. What they call love is actually fear and ignorance wearing name brand shoes. It's all jealousy about who's got more than I do. It's all just shit.. We're screwed because nobody wants to accept that we are the albatross
messiah_fats> raze the oppressive mentality! Karma has done its calculations, gravitational analysis says, bring it all down!.
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Despite Messiah Fats assertion that if they "should have gotten a booth like sym had wanted," ( which undercuts the moment with a sense of guilt that one could only comprehend from riding wide in his grossly obese body) that the incident would have never happened, it was in that battered moment, Indian food marking the walls in an abstract painting of the growing tumultuous affair, that Leon realized the need for a plan to save the world.
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wow what an long jpurnal entry, not able to read this all...
how are you??
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haha still no audio from me avavible, i have actually a small sequen from 15 seconds they are perfect.. i remix from "alson project" eye in the sky .....
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